DArkness within me....

2012-02-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

Oh I'm a gummi bear~
Yes I'm a gummi bear!~

Thanks for all your support!
I think I'm slightly getting better.
I want to.... EAT!

Oh yes, my nee-san is back!
She left Japan and back to her home country Lebanon
I wonder how she's doing and what happened.
Humumumumumu.....

I had funny dreams lately.

1. Jane talking to a baby that she claims that it is Tarzan's illegimate child from an unknown woman. Jane said something like, " I can't believe I'm married with this Hindustan man!"
Since when Tarzan's Indian? O.o

2. Me being Ciel Phantomhive and I have a little replica of myself, treat him like a younger brother. Alois Trancy lives just beside my HDB flat. (All of a sudden, both me and Alois became broke.) I visited Alois and saw a little chubby Alois. I asked Alois why is he chubby and he said, "He's rich. So I made him chubby."

3. A group of robbers broke into my house while I was sleeping and I fought with one of the robbers that happened to be fat with a broom. And won.

4.Me being Luke from Tales Of Abyss. Feeling down, I was looking at the mirror, when Ion came into my room. All of a sudden, I hugged him tight, not wanting to let go. I loved that feeling. Ion hugged me back, and said something that goes like, "I've heard about your dream from Tear. Its okay, you can stay like this until you're satisfied."

5.I was involved in a murder case. I was a witness and even blamed to be the actual murderer. The scene went like this.
One of my collegues, James was accused of murder. The victim was Aoki Kou from Bakuman.
What actually happened was, Aoki Kou was banging herself onto a wall at Sengkang Interchange at 1am. Me and James happened to be there. James said," I dare you to bang your head 20 times."
Which Aoki Kou did, until she bled and died. At the point when Aoki did not stopped banging herself when James said he was kidding, I ran away.
I remembered vividly how I ran and how I felt that time. My heart was pounding and I felt so scared, as if I would be arrested and trialed as the murderer if I didn't get out of the crime scene.

I liked the 4th dream the best. I think its because the feeling of being hugged was great!! XD
Oh and no, I don't ship LukeXIon. I can't see them being together at the first place and plus, its not even a boy-love anime!!!! XD In the game, Luke ended up with Tear.
And here I go blabbering about games and anime. grrr...

2012-02-02T05:30:00.001-08:00

I'm sorry for frequently typing melancholic and emo posts nowadays

I am not attracting attention. I'm just typing it all out.

I'm sorry if I have offended anybody in particular or annoyed any of you readers giving you the idea that I'm typing all this so that someone could comfort me.

Bye.

2012-01-29T07:47:00.000-08:00

"I saw a bear in the den... Reading my textbooks again..." ~ Owl City : Plant Life.

IMAGINE THAT!

2012-01-28T05:33:00.000-08:00

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2012-01-28T05:23:00.000-08:00

ART DUMP!

2012-01-27T05:32:00.000-08:00

I just feel so tired everyday. I just can't do anything nowadays. Why? I can't focus, my mind can't seem to stop thinking about reoccurring thoughts. My memory is failing. I don't even want to entertain with those who tried to have fun or make me smile. I'm scared all the time. I worry about how others think about me. How can I make this stop? I want to start praying again. But I just can't seem to do it! I want to stop this . Am I really a rude person or do I act that way because Im no longer myself ? I wrote things I need to remember and find out if I'm worsening in a small notebook. I can't seem to write happy things nowadays. I just feel so empty or sad even for no apparent reason to able to let me feel happy. I don't think I'm an emo person though. Maybe.... I'm just tired.

2012-01-26T06:15:00.000-08:00

Went to Bugis together with the ever so loving cute Razlinda

Ate Pastamania for the first time. Yummy yummy. Better than Swensens.

Ate Ice cream too.

Went to Kinokuniya. Saw some Light novels of Ore ga Imouto Kawai Ja Nai! , Shakugan No Shana and Toradora.

I seriously need to learn Japanese soon.

Met Rachel during her 45 minute break

Raz and Rachel somehow fought, or tease each other leaving me speechless listening to whatever they are quarreling about

Rachel tried to encourage us to buy stuff from her workplace but we did not.

I don't wear T shirts anymore.

Bought 2 dresses from Bugis Street.

Had fun, would have been better if I talked more.

Just didn't have the energy to do so.

2012-01-21T08:47:00.000-08:00

I might just be paranoid but maybe there's something wrong with me.

Why is it that lately, even though I sleep late or early, I suddenly woke up at around 3-4am ?

Then when I finally be able to return back to sleep after a few toss and turns,

I woke up again, an hour before the time I'm supposed to wake up.

And then, can't go back to sleep.

During my off days, after I sent my siblings to school, I went back to sleep.

This is normal.

What is not normal is that, after I fetch my siblings, I don't bother to take out their lunch boxes or hang up their clothes.

I plopped myself onto the sofa and went to sleep until 6pm.

Over sleeping so it seems.

I've lost interest on many things which usually are the things I do in my daily life.

Such as:

Watching K-POP bands singing or dancing. I don't bother to look or listen to them anymore.

Doodling and drawing. Even though I tried to draw today, I lost interest in completing it soon after an hour.

I usually love cheese and chocolates. But now, when I eat them, I feel like vomiting or not being able to finish them.

I still watch and read anime and manga, but not as much as I usually do in the past. Heck, I even find it difficult to catch up with them now

Cooking. I love cooking , but now, I just don't have any interest in it.

Writing stories. I usually have imaginations and loved writing. But now, those imaginations and inspirations are gone. I lost interest in writing completely

I lost interest in protecting cute animals and plants.

I've noticed my eating habits changed.

I usually eat a lot, my friends should know that I eat a lot.

But now, I can't even finish a plate of rice.

Usually, when there is soup or gravy when eating noodles, I usually drink it all up. My secondary school friends should know, since sometimes I finish up their leftover soup. xD

But now I've noticed, after eating Mee Siam and Instant noodles several times, I don't bother to drink the soup at all.

I feel tired almost every day.

Even though I slept enough.

After I woke up in the morning, I hope that the day will go smoothly and not looking forward for the day.

Felt lethargic, and my body ached when its not supposed to be.

My shoulders, hips and my head despite the fact I don't do much at home or work.

I find it difficult to do things I usually do.

Such as:

Praying (This is especially. I just find it so difficult to pray for the past 2 months that I stopped doing so last month.)

Doing chores in the house.

Cooking.

Helping my siblings with their homework.

I have thoughts of suicide once in a while. But thankfully, I kept reminding myself that it is a sin.

I get irritated and angry easily which I don't usually used to.

Even over the most littlest thing.

An simple argument turned into a frantic drama where I lost control and throw things around.

I'm worried about this. Why did I lost control all of a sudden?

I have low self-esteem.

At work, I always think that I have to do things right, or others will say bad things about me.

When I made a mistake, I became so embarrassed that I felt like dying and constantly think what the others think about me.

When I reached home, the thought of the embarrassment never left my mind.

When I approached a certain colleague, I thought to myself whether to say good morning to them or not.

I avoid eye contact more frequently now.

I'm always thinking when a person advised me, I took notice in their voice and thought that they think I'm being a burden to everyone. I felt they are criticizing me. I know this isn't true but why do I feel this way?

I'm hesitant to ask questions.

I don't care how I look like.

I just get dressed whatever I could find and left the house without any decent powder on my face.

I've lost interest in beautifying myself, since I find it difficult to even look myself at the mirror now.

Heck, I even wear tudung without looking at the mirror! XD

I feel so empty and worthless for the past few weeks.

I sighed frequently now. I don't usually do this.

I feel restless. This is why I hate working at Movie Bites and Box Office for no reason.

I want to walk around, but I can't and when I did ushering today, I kept on pacing up and down.

I avoid meeting my relatives.

I avoid mixing around with people at work.

I keep my thoughts to myself , as the last thing I want to think of me is pity.

Even though something good happened, I don't feel a slight of joy.

When I got my O level results,

Instead of feeling delighted that I passed, I felt so empty.

I felt sad, for no reason.

When I talked to the teachers, my voice was flat and soft.

I thanked them with not much joy

I feel lifeless.

I usually fantasize myself me getting into different kinds of accidents, me getting into arguments with my friends and colleagues or punished by Allah.

Is this normal?

So I tried googling and such.

Just to get some little information if anything is wrong.

I regretted doing that.

What came out are all symptoms of depression. A common mental illness.

I refuse to believe that since internet is not reliable and could not be trusted.

So for fun, I took a test if it will turn out positive.

There are many different tests.

I scored 70% in the Health Promotion Board Singapore test.

I scored 100% at some other simple test.

See? How unreliable it is?

So conclusion.

I won't believe in what I just found out in the internet.

I will just get by with my life.

Inshyallah, everything will be fine tomorrow.

2012-01-17T05:33:00.001-08:00

I can't believe Hatsune Miku is even nominated to be one of the people to sing at the Olympics In London!
This is crazy!
So far, the 1st one to rank is Super Junior
Which is, predictable.
2nd is Big Bang
3rd is Hatsune Miku, the virtual diva.
If Hatsune Miku is to be performing, I think it would be pretty boring don't you think?
She's not human. She won't be able to interact with the audience.
And I don't think she can speak English xD

2012-01-17T04:10:00.000-08:00

Spent 2 days anime marathon....
wooooot

2012-01-14T04:19:00.001-08:00

....... I'm bored.

...

I dreamt of something weird.
It isn't very surprising for me to have weird dreams since I always dream weird dreams.

One, I dreamt of me pressing the Hot Milo button at the hot vending machine at work.
And today, it happened in reality. A strong sense of deja vu hit me.
Again.
I want to go back in ushering.
Its not as if working at the box office or the movie bites is tiring or anything.
Its fine.
One thing I don't like is handling cash.
My hands don't feel comfortable with loads of cash.
It tends to get messy and I got frustrated.

I miss playing video games.
How I wish I have a PS3 to play PS2 games.
... I want to play loads of games all day.
Sounds like a guy would do but...
I want to play Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy , Tales of Abyss and other games.
But hmm... Its not healthy.

Should I get myself a Nintendo 3DS or PSP?

Oh yea, I probably should put my courses choices her... Truthfully, I just randomly put the courses that are eligible for me.
Didn't choose temasek or republic since its too far away for me.
Well at leat Ngee Ann has a shuttle bus but I have to go all the way to Hougang or Ang Mo Kio Interchange.
Singapore... There's MRT. Nanyang is the closest for me.
As you can see, most courses I'm eligible to are design courses.
Although I hope I don't get to any design courses.
I need a special laptop if I get admitted to one.
And I don't wish to spend the whole day drawing in a room.

2012-01-12T01:48:00.001-08:00

Nooooooooooooo!
I just learnt how to sell tickets at the Box Office for the last 2 days
But guess what?
Tomorrow, I have to work at Movie Bites, serving popcorn and other food available there.
NOOOOO! I have yet to digest whatever promotions and discounts back at the Box Office and starting tomorrow,
I have to learn more promotions , the different combos and the different sizes of popcorn and drinks!
Ah! And my mental sums are horrible
Back at working at the Box Office, I have to either use a calculator or ask my collegues.
And I gave the customer wrong change four times! I'm lucky the customers are honest X.X .
Plus, I'm lucky I have kind and nice aunties to teach and observe me xD.
Yea, the Box Office section are handled by most aunties,
Ushering is by the uncles and the MOvie Bites handled by the youths.
Which, makes me feel more awkward.
I have to start socializing AGAIN!

I have 3 movie passes and I don't know what to do with it.
Looks like most of my friends are busy with school or work.
I shall hold on to them until the end of February.

A rather ridiculous conversation between me and a male collegue. I shall type him as Mr. P.

Mr.P : Seriously! You see! She never laugh like that when she's with me!! Is Donut ( His real name is hard to pronounce so I call him Donut.) really more handsome than me?
Me : I don't know, I don't go for handsome guys.
Mr.P : What the @#$% !! Why??
Me : Because I don't know how to see if the guy is handsome or not.
Mr.P : You don't like handsome guys because you don't know what handsome looks like?! What kind of logic is that?!
Me: Ummm, I don't know. I guess I don't go for looks.
Mr.P : That's what all girls say, so hybrid. But in the end, they still choose looks right?! If that's the case, just go to Mr. J upstairs! He's only like 12 years older than you.
Me : No, he's ARROGANT. He thinks he's very perfect. I don't like arrogant people.
Mr.P : Am I arrogant?
Me : No.

Some random conversations with the manager and other collegues, mentioning me.

Mr. C : Want some? *Handing me some peanuts.*
Me : *Shook my head*
Manager : A'liah does not eat peanuts, she eats cherries
Me in my mind. : No I don't! I eat strawberries!

Manager: You work on Chinese New Year days ah?
Me : *nod my head*
Mdm R: Nooo! A'liah got Chinese boyfriend! Hor A'liah?
Me : Ummm...
Manager : A'liah don't like Chinese boys, she likes Ang Mohs. Am I right?
Me : No.

2012-01-07T06:37:00.001-08:00

If I wouldn't be working, I won't be able to sleep due to my thinking over my o level results.

By the way, I'm listening to music while typing so the little sentences are part of the lyrics of the songs I'm currently listening.

"Tell me again that its love at first sight? When I walk by when you caught my eye~" - Owl City- Deer In The Headlights

So to get my mind out of these results, I read 5 books
Well, I borrowed 6 though, ( Well, if you count one magazine, its 7.)
The magazine is titled Otaku Usa. The moment I saw the cover was Fairy Tail, I borrowed it . xD
Finished the first 5 books:
Burst Shadows
Unfinished Business
Louder than Words( Non-fiction. A story of a mother's struggle with an autistic child.)
Twilight Children ( By Torey Hayden, one of the people i admired most, for being a strong teacher for children with difficulties.)
The Dissapearance Of Suzumiya Haruhi.

Hey Library! Why is there only ONE Series of Japanese Manga Literature found among your shelves?
Aren't there LOTS of other Popular Manga Literature like Toradora!, Gosick and Maruma?
Why did you only purchase Suzumiya Haruhi!? (No offence, the story's good.) GRAH!

I must be mad.
Tick and tock.
I don't wish to take my results.
...

"Rest assured cause dreams don't turn to dust!" - Owl City~ Dreams Don't Turn To Dust.

... From here on, I'm going to talk nonsense so please don't mind me.

...
...
Last night, I almost cried...
After reading a certain spoiler... About the official Maruma doujinshi
Doujinshi: A fan-made manga/novel, not relating to the orignal story.
But, its written by the original author itself...
... The ending went something like this.
Yuuri woke up from a dream and found out he's sleeping in a bed. In a mental hospital.
The whole thing about him being the king, the whole demon v.s humans, the whole engagement and having a daughter was not real.
He kept on seeing these hallucinations, thinking it were real.
He finally went crazy when he could not take the fact that Wolf and Greta are leaving him.
And thus, sent to a mental hospital.
...
Why must authors make us readers suffer? Dx
Since its just a doujinshi, the author just wrote it for fun.
At least, this kinda left me feel kinda glad. The author intended pairing for Yuuri was clear.

"I've been longing for.. Daises to push through the floor"- Owl City ~ Plant Life.
" I rather waltz than just walk through the forest."- Owl City~Plant Life.

... I'm bored

" And I'm stuck at the moment, and my heart is open. Tell me, you feel the same~" - Avril Lavigne- 4Real.

2012-01-04T04:02:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I'm having a headache now
Maybe its due to the hot weather?
Mother Earth is hitting on us
Last November-December, I find it terribly cold here in the North Side of Singapore
But once January starts, suddenly the sun shone damn scorchingly

I blog today to share a little funny experience I had with my 2 collegues at work today.
Back at work, me walking around because I was freezing due to the strong aircon when my collegue, who was supposed to do movie bites today came up to me and asked random questions:
"Which cinema is Sherlock Holmes?"
"Is it cold in the cinema?"
My response,
"6."
"Yes and why are you asking me random questions?"
Silence from the guy.
Around 30 minutes later, he went up and chatted with my other colleague.
The other colleague came up to me and asked me , " Follow me can?"
And so I did. By this time I figured what is up.
Movie Bite guy wants to lend his sweater to someone special.
But instead of giving it to her by himself, he asked us a favor to help him pass it to her.
Cute for being so shy, but kinda silly.
Thus we went to Cinema 6. The collegue with me isn't brave enough to go down the stairs to search for her so I did.
My collegue pointed to the person who looked like her but I looked at the person sitting beside her instead, and told him that its not her, its an auntie.
Embarrassing much? I so need to get a pair of spectacles.
And we went out.
Then went in again, and I gave her the sweater. Looks like she knew what was going on since she didn't looks surprised, but more irritated for interrupting her from watching the movie.
And my reward for doing such a deed?
I silent mouthed "thank you" from my collegue as I'm off to go out of work.

To Rachel:
Thanks for your kind word. It really meant a lot to me. I know what you are talking about. But well, I want to experience how it feels like if a person confesses to me , not being in a relationship :P.

Oh yea. I still loving Anime/Manga, chocolates, nature and books
But I'm straying away from K-POP somehow.
Must be due to the new songs are getting... Too common.
Come on! Make some music other than talking about love damn it! XD
I want something new!

Oh yea that reminds me.
Before heading to work, I always went to the toilet at NEX.
I dropped my pin that I need to pin my veil and it slid out of the cubicle.
When I wanted to retrieve it after changing, its gone!
I don't blame anyone who took it.
The pin is shaped as a cute rabbit. Carrying a heart shaped sign. And the rabbit's green. Who wouldn't want to keep it?
And the toilet played "Hello Seattle" by Owl city song.
Felt so happy for no reason. Probably because its been a while since I listened to Adam Young's songs.

2012-01-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

Last week, when I received my pay slip
Shocked and kinda furious
Part of it was deposited to my cpf account
Okay, since when do I have a cpf account?!
Maybe I'm just clueless about this kind of thing

I'm not that time of person to splurge a lot
I'm kinda thrifty
But that thrifty went in vain because in the end, my mum would come to me asking for the money I have
Meh, I don't blame her, otherwise bills will be cut off again
I just hope my sis will give more money to my mum, since her pay is LARGER than mine!!!

Went to Kinokuniya with my mum this morning right after we sent my siblings to school.
At Ngee Ann City
ITS HUGE!
The whole 3rd level is just the bookstore itself!
(Sorry, I don't go out much.)
My mum and I went out seperate ways where my mum head to the cook book section while I rammage the Novels and Manga section
How I wish I could just rob the whole bookstore!
Too bad we didn't have time to slowly look around as we need to do some errands before picking up the 2 children.
So, I bought 2 volumes of Maruma manga
Vol. 5 and 7
Weird, I only found 3 volumes of the manga. Didn't buy Vol. 3, as I've read it online.
AH! I satisfying read!!!
I will definetly go there again, hopefully with the enough time to look around slowly.
I was quite dissapointed about the quality of the manga though
Its not as good as I've expected.
Its Paperback, so I have to wrap it with plastic cover =.=

Oh yea, before heading to Orchard
We went back to my school to retrieve some sort of vouchers but ended up not having them because the school haven't called us yet
On the way there, I heard applause and excitement from the school building
Looks like they are telling which teachers are in charge for each level
Heard the loveable NCC teacher's name called out and applause was loud that I wonder if the residents are going to complain xD
Felt nostalgic, and for a second there, I missed walking to school
ONLY FOR A SECOND NOT MORE!

2011-12-31T04:49:00.000-08:00

Alright brace yourself!
This is going to be long
Oh and by the way, sorry for not updating for so long
My house had some erm... Bill paying problems and I don't have my own pc
Currently, secretly using my dad's laptop
Shhhh!! Oh why bother, he's not ever coming back

Events that happened for the past weeks:

Work
Karaoke with Rachel's family and Jasmine
Watched Puss In Boots and Alvin & The Chipmunks 3 with my family
Watched Sherlock Holmes with Ayakane and Midori chan

I spent my days delightfully
And I'm glad I have such great friends and family
Even though we had a lot of problems, we overcame it
Give a round of applause!!

Some of the things I'm not so glad about is,
I was not able to catch up with Fairy Tail
GAAAAH! Damn you laptop!

I had a dream a few days ago
I dreamt of me passing my o levels but my sis did not
You know what the scary part is?
Last year, I dreamed of failing my n levels
But in the end, I passed it
Will it be the opposite again next year?
As the days passed, I can't help but think a lot about the day I'm going to get my results
How I wish I can not take my results back

Its new year's eve
I spent my day saying Thank You, Good Morning , Good Afternoon and Happy New year to customers at my workplace.
The year just went by so fast
I can still vividly remember the day when my family were getting ready to move to Sengkang, to start a new beginning
But that peace shattered again, during Ramadhan

My mum told me that one of my aunts critisised me and my sis for not wanting to mix around with or cousins
We were working! Its not as if we purposely wanted to skip the wedding invitation
Even if we did go, they will still say that we are "pendiam" "unsocialable"
What am I suppose to talk about with cousins who are younger than me?
I never had problems with my dad's side, only my mum's
Why must they be so, talkative and such a critic?
No one is perfect. Imagine everyone being the same talkative person.
Won't you get bored?

Sometimes I wonder why parents now are spoiling their children
I didn't remember my mum spoiling me and my sis when we were younger

Its a boring post yeah?
And I shall end my post with my new year resolutions

1.Write/Plan my 2 novels
2.Be a better sister to my younger siblings
3.Submit myself more to Allah s.w.t
4.Manage my temper/emotions back at home.
5.Try to be more socialable

After reading Ayakane's blog, I too thought to myself
After 18 years, I never had a single admirer or BF
Whenever I look at FB, there are people complaining that they stay single long enough, and are miserable without a partner
And, they're all younger than me
Sometimes, I do fantasize myself with a partner, like in cute mangas
But I know that can never happen in real life
I wonder if I can find someone who is right for me?
I'm not dead gorgeous of anything
I don't even find myself attractive in any way
I'm not pretty or sexy
I do not have any confidence on myself but forget it
I don't care about my own looks or body anymore
Now, I'm just leading whatever life I'm leading now
I'm getting tired of the MRT trains I had to take anyway
Sometimes I got frustrated when people keep stating about their dates online
And then state how miserable they are after break ups
Sometimes I think, if someone ever confessed to me, cats can fly.

STOP THE EMONESS!!!!
xD

I'm worried about my penpal,Nicole
She hadn't replied to my emails or messages
The last message from her was,

"Hi imouto. Some things happen and I'm back at my home country at Lebanon. Talk to you soon."

2011-12-05T00:46:00.001-08:00

So just to let you guys know

... I'm sick xD

And bored

This is nothing new though

Must be because of work

Hey, what do you expect when you stay in an extremely cold place for long hours?

You're bound to get sick eventually!

Maybe I should wear 3 pieces of clothing

Frankly, I watched Puss In Boots twice, yet I want to watch it again xD

My sis told me about 2 customers that ate at her workplace

One of them scolded her colleague

And she cried.

The manager apologized and told my sis that the customers are a gay couple

And that gays are very sensitive

In my head , I was thinking

Are you sure? Thats too stereotypical. It depends on the individual ?

Come on, is like saying lesbians are not sensitive, and they're girls!

One lesson

We don't have the rights to judge a person just because of their status

Hey! There are some guys that are sensitive, but not gay !

Oh yea, by the way

I hope to see a gay couple in reality

Haha! Don't get the wrong idea

I saw lesbian couples and normal couples before in Singapore but not gay couples yet

And thus the curiosity!

2011-11-26T04:26:00.001-08:00

Ahhhh I'm so bored bored bored!

2011-11-20T21:37:00.000-08:00

I currently having 2 days off from work

And to tell you the truth, I felt so bored!

Why is that so?

I guess its because I'm not able to go out or something

Yesterday, at first, I spent an hour watching Disney Channel, Phineas and Ferb

There's nothing else to watch!

Then, went to use my dad's computer (which I'm currently using) to watch

Kuroshitsuji OVA 3, Saiyuki Gaiden ep 2 and Bakuman 2

Ah~ Catching up on Anime...

And there are more to catch up with!

Soon, I'll be watching some drama online

Then, back to watching TV on Channel 8 , Portrait Of Home

And on Animax, Full Metal Alchemist

So basically, I need worthless things on my day off

I had wanted to help out at the animal shelter yesterday but somehow, my mum disagree. I don't know why and I'm going to try again this Sunday!

And yes, I'm bored all over again

I wonder why I'm given 2 days off?

Hmm...

Is it me or is someone avoiding me?

HMMMMM.....

You know, having a chaotic family maybe isn't all that bad

I got to experience what normal family can't experience

Maybe I'm just being a masochist but well...

I guess it helps me to become more independent and responsible?

One of my collegue asked me if I always go to the cinema to watch movies

I replied no, not always. No money.

And he said "Just ask your parents for money then."

I replied with a smile and he asked if I'm the oldest

And understood why I couldn't be like other youths, enjoying themselves outside with their friends shopping and laughing.

Well its my choice.

I do not have the desire to go out and shop. I never liked crowded places anyway

Ah yes, met my uncle while working 2 days ago.

He too works there, as a projectionist

Its been so long since I've seen him, my dad's oldest brother

Funny, despite my dad's mischief of not wanting to keep in contact with his siblings and family,

His siblings still remembers about

Well maybe I'm being a little dramatic but don't you think its amazing us humans can be? :D

2011-11-18T20:58:00.000-08:00

And I am finally back!!!!

I've changed my blogskin too

Something more simple

Exams are over!

Its too late for me to say that but oh well!

What I've been doing lately?

Work. Work. Work.

But it isn't that bad

All I have to do now is to open and close the doors in the halls

The best part is this

5 or 10 minutes before the movie ends,

I can go inside the cinema and watch the last bit! XD

Then I can open the door when it ends

There are a lot of people coming to see the movies due to the school holidays

And the premiere of Happy Feet 2

Can't wait for Puss In Boots! I wanna watch!

Oh yes, I also have to give out 3D glasses.

How I wish I could stay as an usher until the new school term starts

I'm a bit lazy to learn how to handle popcorn or movie ticketing =v=

My family is a bit of a mess right now but I everything will work out

Although I'm not sure if my dad will really find happiness by marrying another woman though...

I mean, which woman want to marry a 40+, turning 50, man except only for money?

But oh well, its his decision. I can't meddle with adults affairs

Men... They are selfish and heartless creatures , aren't they?

Well, not all but still.

Oh well! This kind of thing is growing common.

My mother tell me he's bringing her home tomorrow for us children to see

I don't know its a good thing though

For my younger siblings I mean.

I can't wait to have an Anime marathon!

And plan my stories !

Continue my fanfic!

... I kind of miss all of my friends...

2011-10-25T03:07:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, I just have to say this

I'm sooo going to work straight after the o levels!

NO money, no enjoy xD

Seriously, I don't even have my own laptop now

... How am I suppose to catch up with all those anime and dramas!!!'

@_@!!!!!

2011-10-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!

How are you all doing?

As you can see from my long absence, I'm studying obviously

Just 2 more weeks to the last race~

School was fine today

Except for the fact I have to keep so many papers due to my group being absent today!

(dies)

Hehe, it was quite relaxing actually

I spent my recess alone eating pau and drinking yogurt drink while reading my book in a quiet area in the school

Which is, just outside the teacher's office

I felt so relaxed~

When I told my sis, her reaction was

"What are you, a character in an anime?"

Pffffttt please don't say the word anime to me

I'm so missing it right now

HECK! Fairy tail now is at the S class Arc YET

I have yet to finish watching the Edolas Arc >.<

My sis been telling me that her classmates are spoiling her about it

And my sis is spoiling me

And I felt like crying

NOOOO ! Natsu and the others disapeareD!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

...

If someone is going to spoil me again, I'll stitch your mouth up before you say A WORD!

Hmm.. I guess I'm best alone sometimes

After school, I saw a kitten went into the drain

So I kept searching for it there

Some of my classmates happened to pass by there to

I wonder what they are thinking when they saw me staring at potted plants suspiciously? XD

... Missing my Midori chann...........

We're attached after all! XD

2011-09-20T08:28:00.001-07:00

I must be obsessed with blogging or something
Since this post is the third post I'm posting for the day
11.27pm now
My throats hurts
Its as if something is stuck in there xD
Because of that, I can't sleep
An I'm reading KKM! Novel Translations
... I'm missing out a lot.... Since translations has a lot of missing chapters or so.
If you don't mind, read this paragraph between two characters in the novel.
I find it amusing and sweet.

"Are you sleeping?"

"Yeah."

"Liar. A sleeping person wouldn't have answered."

"It was a conditioned response. I sensed that you'd become all whiny, so I couldn’t leave you without a reply."

"Not even pretending to be asleep like you usually do?"

"That's because I am a kind person." ( Haha! )

2011-09-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

I think I have to learn to read Mandarin >.<
I want to read KKM! Novels so badly but its only available in Mandarin in Singapore!!!
Graaah....

I missed them so.
Fairy Tail too...
... Me missing things that never existed in reality
Well, that's me.

2011-09-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

And thus, this marks the end of the preliminary examinations!!!
However, this isn't the end.
Next big obstacle, the O levels!!!!!

Well well...
As of today
My brother fell sick
On top of that,
I'm feeling uneasy myself
... Great. I'm falling sick too
Bye bye school. I'm not attending you tomorrow
Too bad... I was hoping to retrieve my papers
(Not that I'm expecting them that fast though)

Since I'm here, I might as well share my day last Saturday
My siblings and I went to Serangoon to attend my father's side's sister's Open House. ( Wow, that's a lot of " 's " )
Yep, only me and my siblings. My mother had to go to work
Whereas my dad... Well, I don't know where he went. He's gone missing from Friday to Sunday.
My mother told me my dad told my aunt that he's sick, so he's unable to attend the Open House
My response, laughed and said, " Liar!"
OKAY back to the main point

When we reached there, we saw many familiar faces
Many of the people there are uncles and aunts I rarely met
Cousins too. Most of them have grown so tall since I last seen them in 5 years or so.
There was one uncle missing on that day.
When I greeted Amang Lili ( Uncle for younger sibling of my dad in Boyan. Oh, and that's not his real name. Its short for his real name which is too long to remember.)
He said, " Ah, go facebook type I'm at my aunt's house"
I wanted to reply " I don't have an android" but I figured its better to just smile and walk on instead.
Most of my aunts kept on asking us if we have eaten lunch, had my mother cooked and where our parents are.
Is that pity I feel from you?
Truthfully, I was annoyed but oh well. They cared. I guess.
I don't find my family pitiful. Other families are doing worse than us.
Besides, tiffs and divorces are common nowadays.
Also, I can cook. If my mother doesn't want to cook, I can cook instead.

Ah yes. I would love to mention that my cousin, Abang Hakim ( who he awfully resembles like my dad by appearance.)has his own band
He would be performing in the Esplanade at 27th September in an open stage
I would love to see that... Its a weekday so impossible >.<
His room was like a tiny studio!
Drums sets, Bass, Guitar , Keyboard.
I had to wonder how he get the money to buy all those instruments
I remembered he had those even before he started working.
So my youngest sister kept on playing the drum while I just sat beside her.
Suddenly, 2 of my cousins and my youngest, Amang Wiwi (Or is it Weewee? Again its short for his real name), started to play a song.
They played Mr. Brightside by The Killers.
Amang was the vocalist.
I wasn't that all surprised though
While they were playing, my uncle went to take a peek to see who's singing. When he saw his youngest brother singing, he grinned and closed the door.
Then came in my Aunt. She looked surprised and asked,
"Eh, you're singing? Eh fake ah!"
My cousin, Kakak Yaya said, " NO! Its real! Amang was singing!"
My aunt's response was , " LOL"
(Wow, I'm was surprised. She so modern)
Amang then asked me to rate his singing.
I told him 8/10. XD
I have to wonder why his own sister didn't know her brother's singing voice xD
I guess its because this happens if you have too much siblings.

Oh yes. I just realized most of my aunts are so white.
And their names are unique xD
Well, my dad's name wasn't common either so I guess its the same for his other siblings.
Their names are so long! ( My dad's name is long and unique too. My siblings still can't get to spell it right yet!)
Ah I still remember people asking me what race my dad is due to his unique name.
Maybe its because he's mixed Japanese and Boyanase?
But wait. My mother's mixed Chinese and Malay. Why doesn't she have a unique name?
Hmm...I wonder how my grandparents came out with such names

I guess overall was quite okay.
We ended the open house with a group picture.

2011-09-19T05:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ayakane chan!!!
Do you remember this guy?
Hehe, your certain playmate in your story ^^
... I forgot his name though but I think he's pretty cute in this picture.
Imagine him thinking what to give you and when he finally find the perfect present for you, he starts to hesitate!
Awwww~
Sure he's immature and rude. But in the end, he has a kind heart.
And, he can be quite mature in certain events! XD
I CAN'T WAIT TO REWRITE THE STORY!!!!!

SAI Program expire, so I have no choice but to print screen this picture instead
So, its small and low in quality TT_TT

2011-09-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

I know this is kinda of late but...
Selamat Hari Raya~!

I've been MIA from the internet for awhile now
From Anime...
Fanfictions....
Manga
Facebook
Youtube
Seriously, I find that internet had nothing for me to do now

Went to my grandparents house last Tuesday
Chatted with my... Uncle(He looks like my cousin though)
Asked me why I don't like Justin Bieber unlike other girls
Replied to him, "Its not I don't like him. I just never go crazy about him. He's a normal guy to me."
Last time I watched a movie in a cinema?
"Last Year"
And he laughed
Yea, I'm not like other youths who loves to go out xD
Its gooood to be me!

And on Wednesday
... My whole family has diarrhea (except for my youngest sis)
I was so glad I didn't go to school on that day
I kept on going in and out the toilet and my stomach hurts so baaaad!
Its probably due to me overeating spicy food at all the houses my family visited

Well other than that...
What I've been doing to baking
Pineapple tarts supply was diminishing so I have to make another set
But the 2nd time, I made it Modern Style
But that too is diminishing due to my family eating it @.@
And cookies!

2011-08-28T04:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went to Geylang with my family
Well, exclude my dad.
... He's been gone for 2 days now
Over there, I bumped onto Ayakane_chan
YAY! Then all of a sudden, felt so happy that I bumped to her xD

Oh yes, finally bought ingredients for my kueh making
And you know what?
Last night, I was so excited to bake Pineapple tarts that I started to prepare right after I got home.
While I was preparing the egg yolk, I was heating the oven
When suddenly, the whole house went black
BOOM!
I felt like I wanna cry xD But I didn't of course
Because the one that caused the shortage was the oven!
ITS SPOILT!!!
Ended up not baking anything and me being sad
So I read The Rampage Of Haruhi Suzumiya.
... Its my sister's book that she borrowed from the library
And behold! I finished reading the book just in one day!
Luckily, my cousin had offered me to borrow her oven
So now, I can't wait for her to show up !!!
My hands are itching to bake

... I missed 3 episodes of the Anime
Due to the exams
I hope I don't forget the last episode no.
Otherwise, I have to search all over
Miss Fairy Tail , Sket dance and Baka To Test To Shokanjuu 2

I wanna watch Smurfs and Cars 2!
Katy Perry's the Smuffete
I got to say, I love the design
Its so real
Especially Smurffete's hair
Blond!! :D

2011-08-26T07:44:00.000-07:00

Yo.
Its been a while, hasn't it?
Although I doubt not many people will read this piece of site anyway

A lot of things happened recently
And truthfully, I'm tired of it
Its not the exams.
True, I'm currently having prelim exams right now
And today was the last day of the first part of the prelims
Other papers will resume after the September

I guess I begun to realize what the month of Ramadhan means
It also happens to be a month full of obstacles
... That is true
A lot of events happened back at home
And I'm sick of it.
Why didn't the problems start when I have not paid for my O level's yet?
Isn't it better that way? So I can quit school without regretting?
So tell me, adults who are living under the same roof with me
Why must you do this? To us?
Why throw your responsibility to us kids?
We have nothing to do with your arguments, problems or what ever not
So why get us involved in all different kinds of mess?
I told my mother about how I feel
I said, "Enough. Your fight between you and dad had nothing to do with us so stop saying things that you think will happen. No one know what's going to happen in the future so please stop filling my head with more worries."
Maybe I'm being a little harsh but really.
Things have quieten down but yet, one after another,
Both are...
Finding trouble and then the kids got tangled in them
Divorce again? Well fine. So be it but are both of you willing to do that?
One has no where else to stay so think.
What's the point of finding trouble for?
Seeking attention?
Oh well. I'm not you, so I won't know what you're thinking
Bur if you are seeking attention. Congratulations. You got her attention.
However, it has a consequence.
It made me have to endure to her rapid babbling and nonsense.

Oh yes
Now back to the positive side.
Recently, I've been watching a Japanese Drama : With The Light~ Embracing An Autistic Child. (Hikari to Tomo ni)
I got through this drama from Manga I borrowed from the library
Its by chance really, and its REALLY THICK!
Sadly, the author passed away so the manga was unfinished
It stopped at volume 7, and scans can't be found online.
Okay back to the drama. (Although the story plot isn't entirely the same)
IT WAS SO TOUCHING!
And for the very first time, I cried when I watched the drama ( Not because its sad. Its touching!)
Especially during Episode 3.
All of a sudden, the autistic boy finally calls his mother "Mama."
However, he didn't do it again. Which makes the memory very precious to his parents. ( some autistic children can't do what they did the day before. Its kinda difficult for them)
The drama shows how parents of an autistic child struggles in raising him.
But, their efforts paid off. Being able to see their child grow and develop...
So to those who love a good tear jerk-er and love kids, watch this xD
Only 11 episodes

In a group of 1000 children,1 or 2 are autistic.
I wish to play with these children. To understand more about their world.
I wonder, Midori_chan. I hope I can play with 2 of your siblings one day :)
(2 of her siblings are autistic.)
I don't see autism as a disability.
We all are different in terms of personality
Autistic children ...They're just unique children. That is all.
So I don't think they should be ignored, treated differently or push them aside within the society.
Instead, we should make friends with them. Understand their world, as the world they live in are different from ours.
They can't hear,see,sense or taste like how we do.
Some, when they hear things, when they are in an open space with a lot of people
And all of these people are talking, all the voices attack the child at once.
The child will hear to all the voices and sounds that are present. Their brain can't process which voice to focus on, not like ours.
Its a painful process for them and for children, when they can't tolerate it anymore, they will throw a tantrum.
Scream and cry as if all hell broke lose.
Different individuals are different. So the perspective varies in each individual.
Not all autistic children are the same. Like us, they have different personalities, different likes and dislikes.

I feel like typing more!
Okay about my prelims...I guess they're okay
Like normal exams...
Oh yes for my English Paper 1
One of the topics is "Speed."
Well, I chose to write an essay on that one
So after the exam, I asked around what the others wrote about
I panic. Why does everyone write about the topic related to racing?!?!
Am I the only one who wrote about a butler, serving his master with speed?!
GAAAAH!! I fear the story is unrelated! >.<
I hope hope hope not!
Now that I think about it...
Why did I even wrote about a butler? =.=
I don't even like them. ( BUAHAHAHA!)
I guess it just popped in my head at that point of time

And that is all for today!
See ya!

2011-08-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I thought Thursday was Tuesday
Buahahaha! I guess that's normal
Well for me at least

School was not so bad
The same thing
Prelims are coming!!
I'm so anxious for my maths!
I failed the Mock Maths Paper 1 Exam
30/80
And it was easy!
And you know why I failed?
Typical me, most of the questions have careless mistakes
And... I always try to solve questions the hard way
I can never see simple things when I see one
Help...
Oh and yes, I can't see angles in different point of view
And that is why, whenever I attempt an angle question, things got complicated in my head
Yet, other students said Angles is the most easiest!
I really have to go for it!

I searched the web
I searched for publishers in Singapore
I guess, I really do want to be a novelist
But this is Singapore
I can't be one full time
But I can be one part time, while working on my other job
I checked the different polytechnics
The courses that can be an advantage about being a novelist are:

Early Childhood and Psychology. (This course, in the third year, one can choose to either learn to write books for children or choose psychology)

Media & Communication ( Bleh... I don't like journalism, seriously)

And lastly, only available in Singapore Poly,

Creative Writing For TV and Media

Really now... Not much of a choice , eh?
Maybe I shouldn't choose these courses, I'll just choose something else
Like Vet, Nursing, Animation.............
... *sigh* Or go Junior College!
OR
Stop studying GAH!

Had a nice chat with one of my old friend
Well not really old, we just seldom communicate in class
Yea, it is hard to trust someone
That, I know.
But what I realize after all the experiences about betrayal and such
I don't need to trust someone
It will just come naturally
In the end, its the instincts that will work out
If we don't trust a certain person, that means its meant to be that way.
Your instinct is telling you not to trust that person and it is right to follow them
And be careful about what you say or share
But sometimes, we do need trust to resolve conflicts
From what I learned in History, the mistrust between the USA and the USSR had led to the Cuban Missile Crisis(Cold War) in the past
And it was finally resolved when a new leader of the USSR decided to stop the ridiculous arms race and resolve the conflict, to prevent another war from breaking out.
Imagine, if that certain leader did not step up and stop, the world won't be here anymore due to World War 3.
Even though he was overthrown from the post, he did after all, saved the world
Oh and by the way, he's still alive.
And his name was Mikhail Gorbachev.
Just search in Wiki if you want to know what he really did to save the world xD

And as usual, History always reminded me of KKM =w=

Feh, though I don't think many youths will even be interested in this!

2011-08-06T20:58:00.000-07:00

... I wonder
Why does my font appear gray after I publish every post?
Truthfully, I'm typing in red...

We all have our own difficulties
Nobody is perfect
Not everyone can talk, hear, write, walk,think like normal people do
I'm just grateful for what I have now
Shelter, food, water, education (Although I don't want education)

Many people's first impression about me would be
"Emo kid"
Oh really? Doesn't mean one is quiet, difficult to socialize is emo.
Doesn't mean I love to me alone, doesn't mean I'm arrogant
Oh the horror!
When one is being moody or tired, I will just let the person be
Maybe contacting with them will bring more pressure...
Nowadays, I love the classroom during recess time 8D

I'm sure Ayakane_chan understand how I feel
We both are facing similar problems regarding socializing and making friends
Really... Maybe its because of this that we are fated to meet :')
And I'm glad for that.
I miss her so much!

I feeling so nostalgic when I recall the memories how we became friends
Me, Hui Min and you
You two felt that you guys don't belong with our classmates
Thus, we started to talk to each other and that's how our friendship is formed
Ah~ The memories!
I'm having difficulty to contact Hui Min
I never been online in MSN because of Exams
And she never online on FB
So its hard to chat...
I hope after all the exams are over, I'm able to contact with her again :)
I got to know through Midori by NCC
But I didn't talk to her
I felt I do not belong there and I stopped attending the CCA

But once I'm 15,
We started to talk, since you became Ayakane's friend
The 4 of us, kept meeting before school started.
Ah~ The memories

It's been so long since we've met...
Now with exams coming near and tests going on, its much more difficult to chat with you
Hopefully, after all of this is over and we are having our break, we are able to meet and enjoy with one another
And thus, I conclude
Say Midori, Ayakane
Why not we go out together either on these dates?

11.11.11
OR
12.11.11

It is long, but still
Hehe ^^ I hope our exams are over by then!
(Actually I have a paper on 14.11.2011 but that's not the point! xD)

2011-08-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

"See kids this is why drinking (Alcohol) is bad. You... become an idiot"

-Kevjumba

Hmm...

True, when you're drunk !

2011-08-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

*melts*

No more further comments

Just leave me be to do my melting xD

Ramadhan is here

There are many reasons why we fast

There are facts to fasting as well, other than religiously of course

Scientifically wise, Fasting allows insulin in our body to work at its max.

This ensures our body would convert glycogen to glucose regularly at this time of year.

Also, this is healthy. It helps our enzymes to work properly and practice itself regularly for its specific function! 8D

(Gosh Biology Student on the goooo!)

Truthfully, all religions practice fasting

But of course, differently.

If we're thinking about the concept of our mindset,

Fasting tests our endurance

Other than abstaining from food,

We are to endure the feelings of hate, jealousy, anger.

From smoking, having sex, listening to music (I know! I just found out 2 months ago. Its hard, as a youth!)

This makes one patient

From the start, if one starts to throw a tantrum during this month while one is fasting, it is not good. If my parents is strict religiously, I would have to break my fast when that happens.

We are to refrain from gossiping and backbiting too (Its not nice anyway!)

If we are to think about this socially.

Fasting helps us go through how the poor had gone through without food and water.

And if we are to think about it in Islamic way

Is to get closer to Allah spiritually

2011-08-02T05:51:00.000-07:00

SUJU's 5th album is OUT!

Teaser is out!

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OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTToo

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Lazy to post the pictures and video xD

So go search for yourselves!

Buahahahhahaa!

Eunhyuk looks cool yet his hair makes him look as if he's ill ._.

His face has gone a bit bony >.<

Ryeowook has gone a bit chubbier

Sungmin as well

Kyuhyun and Donghae so handsome!!!! (Bah why I bother typing this, I'm not really into handsome guys)

But! They're still cute! Wahaha

The others are pretty much the same :D No changes seen

Gahaha

I guess Siwon became more muscular?

2011-07-30T05:17:00.001-07:00

Met with my beloved yesterday

She hasn't changed a bit, except she did grew a little taller xD

Hmm I wonder if Ayakane grew too?

This is one of our conversations while we were eating

Midori: I'm jealous you know. Roslinda(Ayakane) always got confessed by the Chinese Guys while me, I got confessed by the Malay Guys

Me: You two should feel lucky. I HAVE NONE!

I should study in Sengkang Library often

There's a cafe in there ! :D

While we are studying, I can't help but want to buy the Coffee drinks there

There's chocolate too

But I didn't buy. Because I can't see the menu! xD

So I can't order hehehe

(My spectacles broke last December. Can't afford to buy a new one x) )

2011-07-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

Really

I have a lot to type about

But I'm afraid some are private 8D

School was really...

Awfully boring nowadays

That's to be expected

We've finished all our syllabus (Well except for History)

So lessons were really boring

Hurry up Prelims and come! I want no more lessons, just self-study!

Plus

I can't take the same route to school anymore

I can't walk after I alight my usual bus stop

Just because there's some stupid pervert lurking there =.=

And its have to be me and Jasmine's luck to be one of his victims

Heck, I'm damn irritated because of this

Not for being his victims (As if I like it either!) but because I have to take 3 buses in total now!

GRAH!

And buses 291 and 293 are always coming late, I was late last Wednesday

Tomorrow , I'm going to experiment taking bus 34

... I have a hunch I'll be late again

But you know

He's not so stupid to be lurking around there again

I think he's in another area now

Aish, why must it most perverts lurk in Tampines?

I'm not saying all of them are there, just most

Heck with it all! Can't you go to Geylang instead?!

SHEESH!

I feel like going karaoke

I tried recording my voice through my hand phone

... Sounds horrible >v< ;; !!

2011-07-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

I received this award from Ayakane_chan

First time receiving it , and I'm supposed to tag 15 bloggers and write 7 facts about myself

Gasp, 15 bloggers? I don't know that much bloggers! xD

So, I'm not going to tag anyone :> Never liked tagging :D

By the way, Versatile means adaptable

I wonder what the award supposed to mean to me?

Okay and the 7 facts are~

1.I tend to take friendships seriously. Its an important bond to me.

2. I love fish eye balls.

3. I still love SUJU, even though I don't write about them much

4. I'm straying away from so many K-POP bands because there's too many to remember them all! @.@

5. I have social and communication problems.

6. I used to drink coffee, now, I only drink tea~

7. I always prefer reading the light novels instead of watching the anime / reading the manga! Original works are always the best! ~

2011-07-23T07:34:00.000-07:00

"You know I'm a crazy bitch! I do want I want when I feel like it!"

From the song Smile by Avril Lavigne

True true, I do think like that sometimes

Too bad... I'm no bitch :D

I'm a Rooster! (Well, Hen for a female one xD)

So if you don't like my attitude, personality, looks or whatever

Leave me alone :D, get away from me, gossip about me whatever you want,

I will still be me xD I don't give a damn to your stupid gossips :D

I'm just being me and being me rocks!

What can I say?

Love yourself before loving others~ :D

Don't you people agree? xD

Accept people for the way you are

DJH told me once "You can try to change a person, but if they don't then forget it"

Well but you know what?

People don't change when people ask them to

What kind of right do I have to change a person?

They're who what they are, no point in changing them because they are them.

Its up to them to change, for better or for worse

So the only thing I could do is adapt to it :)

P.S : Bitch as in Female Dog. I wonder why people scold other people that. Give dogs some love damn it! They didn't even do anything wrong! Poor doggies :(

Oh yes, had a long chat with Nicole last night

I told her about the Malay culture

I told her most of the Malays shun themselves away from dogs and I feel rather stupid after learning that Muslims CAN touch dogs, but not from whatever comes out of it ( Blood, saliva, urine ..)

Her reply was,

"Are you sure its about the Islamic religion that made them shun away from dogs? Because here in the Arab world, everybody love dogs, be it Muslims or Christians. Maybe its about the culture that made them shun away from dogs?"

Hmm... If its about the culture, I sure don't know anything about it

Poor doggies! :( Being avoided for not knowing the reason what they did wrong

They are still a creation from Him, so lets give them some love as well :)

Give love to all the animals out there ! :D

Midori! Get well soon!

I just recovered from a week fever as well! xD

And because of that, I missed a lot of Bio and Chemistry Practical lessons

Puuu....

2011-07-23T07:05:00.000-07:00

I feel insane and silly today 8D

2011-07-22T10:08:00.000-07:00

"Now the distance is bigger between us but this heart (my heart) will always be

beside you"

~Shibuya Yuuri To Wolfram : Asuka August 2011 Issue : Manga Chapter 41

(Heck the cover art of the magazine WAS AMAZING! Not going to post here, since some readers are not interested hehe!)

...Yes, I still love this series. Not the anime but the novels/manga.

Third post, this is just random

Ignore this if you must!

But you have to agree that the sentence was touching, no?

I do not believe that "long distance relationships inevitably come to an end", or so what Lara Croft said in Tomb Raider Legend

Instead, to some people, its the exact opposite

It makes one stronger. This is probably what I feel with my friends whom have graduated .

If I don't feel this way, then that means are not friends, but mere acquaintances

I feel this way towards, Ayakane, Midori, Hui Min(Miss you!), Nicole,Andrea and Razlinda

Even though we are separated, I still think of you guys as close friends.

2011-07-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Racial Harmony Day

Every even, has its own story

A minute ago, I was telling Nicole about the story Of Maria Hertogh/Nadra

It was a dramatic yet sad story, and the story made me and Nicole thinking

Most Singaporeans know the story

Of a girl, torn between two worlds

Those who want to learn more, go to Wikipedia and searched for her name

It made me wonder

Did Maria continued to live her life as a Muslim, even though she was forcibly converted into a Christian by her parents?

How did she pray? In view of Christianity or Islams

Secretly? Or openly?

We don't know this, only Maria herself and Allah knows.

It was stated she was never happy with her husband in the Netherlands...

If only the British Government were more sensitive to this issue

Then again, Maria has her own biological parents

They have the rights to take her back

But then again, Maria has the right to choose. It was her path in life.

But overall, do you want to know what I think?

The whole event, its as if its all fated

Its all Allah's will to make these events happen.

To teach us the lesson that we should respect each one another's religion

I would recommend you guys to watch the video above

It's Maria herself.

She passed away in 2009 due to Leukemia.

2011-07-22T06:02:00.001-07:00

Avril Lavigne sings so good!

Love her live performances!

Hope to watch her concert live one day!

2011-07-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

Yosh everyone!!!

Finally the week is over!

I can relax for a while now

School was so long and tiring, everyone in the Sec4/5 cohort must be very tired

I hope Prelims will come soon, and I hope that after our prelims, we can choose to stay at home and study

If that would be, I would come to school probably around 10 am to study

Thursday is the longest day for us 5N2 students

Due to Biology Practical Remedial, and also because school ended later than usual

Its supposed to end at 5.15pm

But Its always me,Rachel, Jasmine, WQ and Farisha left the last

Why the reality!

Nah, we're just slow

I don't really like Biology practical...

I tend to get very blur and don't know what to do

At times like this, I prefer Chemistry Practical

However... I prefer Biology Theory than Chemistry xD

MY date with Midori was cancelled :(

Due to her school suddenly having last minute lectures >.<

If I were to go to Poly, I'll probably fall asleep during lectures xD

I feel like drawing...

School for me is rather peaceful nowadays

Its probably due to the major exams coming that,

I'm talking less towards my school friends

I started to hang around alone too

I started to not go for Recess, because I find the classroom comfortable and I always took a nap

Today was especially nice to sleep!

It was raining!

After so many days of hot weather, Allah swt has finally brought us rain

Allhamdullilah

Grateful for that, yet another sign Ramadhan is coming

YAY!

Can't wait for Bazaat Ramadhan, baking of treats!

2011-07-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

I guess I have no choice but to rely on fan translation in the internet for the Japanese Light Novels I want to read but they are incredibly slow...

Well it isn't easy to translate stuff!

Unless you are a professional !

Nyahahahahhahahaa!

2011-07-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

I have to really get rid of this blog

Today was Malay Listening Comprehension

Really now, I don't know who set up the timetable but why must the paper start at 5pm! >.<

I came back home 7pm sharp 8D, on time to watch K-ON!

Gaaaahahahaa!

On time to break my fast too

Gaahahahahahahhaa!!!!

...

Oh yes!

I used the 3 hours to meet up with one of my friends whom I missed so much ever since she left school

NoRazlinda ^^

Although , we only spent half an hour of our time together

It was still memorable

I waited for her until 2.45pm, so I rushed there for nothing xD ( I reached there at around 2pm)

I should have realized that sooner hehe

We talked a lot of stuff

Although mostly, she did the talking about her work xD

We strolled to Comic Connection and babbled about B2st, 2PM , anime and Manga

She too is busy with work , we all are

I really want to hurry up and finish up the O levels

MY HANDS ARE ITCHING TO WRITE!!!! GAH!

I searched the web about Singapore writers and such

How to submit and all that but the stories I read there are all so ordinary...

I wonder if they will accept a very fantasy world story of mine?

Feeling too lethargic to study chemistry

I think its more like

I never have the mood to study chemistry, have I?

Never liked the subject >.<

... MIDORI!

Where are you?! You told me you will tell me the venue but until now I have yet to know

Playing hard to get , are you?

Well well, you're lucky to have a patient hubby! (I'm a CURLY DUDE!)

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!

Heck I want to go swimming, karaoke ,drawing , writing and shopping for Anime/Manga/Novels/Clothes/Food/food/food/FOOOD

Oh one more thing

I MISS YOU AYAKANE CHAN!

2011-07-17T19:53:00.000-07:00

Yo!
Its been a while :D
Well there's really nothing to type here except....

I'm now officially in a relationship! :D
Hearts all over!
Love you Midori!

Now is E-learning
And its worst than the last one
I can only find 2 assignment
Where did English and Maths go?

I think I'm going to delete this blog and start a new one :)
I find this blog... Too emotional xD
I read my 2009 posts, gosh was I that moody?!
So embarrassing!
So I'm going to delete this blog soon
Don't worry! I'll inform you guys of my new one soon!~
From now on, I'm going to see everything in a positive side despite the circumstances
No point being all sad and moody , since I think its... Like trying to grab attention haha!
Oh the house is so messy!
I hate to see a place where its so messy!
I have to clean it up afterwards!
My table too... Too overcrowded!!!
GAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! How I wish I could throw the laptop away somewhere else so I could have a decent place to study

Love all my friends! I MEAN ALL!

RAMADHAN IS COMING!
YAY!!!

2011-07-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

Baka To Test To Shokanjuu 2 is OUT!

WOOOOOOOO!

2011-07-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

Its been a while

Nothing much happened and I'm kinda lazy to update this piece of virtual thing

Erm... yea... nothing much happened.

Except I fall sick and such

Again

The 4th time

I feel so bad for my mum...

We keep on getting sick and she has to pay all the medical fees

Oh and I cut my hair a bit shorter but there isn't much difference

Gaaah! I don't want to go back to school! >.<

...

Lately I feel so lost

Its like I've lost something

Probably, I might soon lost an important friend

But then

Who cares but me?

These thoughts kept on clouding in my mind

But you know

Its just means that I cared too much and I regarded that person very dear to me

But once again

Who cares, but me?

Well unless somebody says they do care :)

Hehe

7pm to 8pm is like the 4 of us sit down and watch TV xD

We watch Animax and currently watching Fairy Tail and Lucky Star together

I LOVE NATSU! <3

(I think this is the first time I love the main character)

But it will soon end :(

And then K-ON! and 07-Ghost will take over

Aww how I wish they continue Fairy Tail! (Even though I watched them already online every Saturday)

I wonder why NOW then they show 07-Ghost

The story isn't that good but I love the characters =w=

They should show Sket Dance,GoSick or something :D

And I'm ranting about anime again

Grraawwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!

I want more Fairy Tail!!!!

Can't wait until the next episode! (The online one)

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I can't wait for the new Hana Kimi to start airing too

Wooo!!! Heechul, Donghae and Siwon are in!!!!

KYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

I still remembered I watched the Taiwanese version of it 4 years ago on TV

It was so funny xD

Members of Fahrenheit and S.H.E Were the main cast xD

2011-06-30T05:26:00.001-07:00

How much better can this get?

First, Sign Of The Moon was released

Then , The Warlock from The Nicholas Flamel Trilogy was also released

(I have the book now >.< Too anxious to read it!)

And now,

Crookedstar's Promise is going to be finally released in 5 days!

Not in Singapore though but so what?!

YAY!

It came earlier than I thought!

That means I will be expecting it in late August ^^

YAY!

I've read more than 6 books ever since school reopened this year

How better can it get? ^^

2011-06-27T05:11:00.000-07:00

School was fine

Its as if the June Holidays never even existed before

The feeling is like that when I stepped into the school hall

Well, there are some changes to the school

Like...

The staircase.

Its decorated with Physics Law.

Too bad I don't understand them. I'm a Biology student! 8D

A cafe located outside the teacher's office

Well that's what the title said when I was there but it wasn't even open for business yet xD

One thing I don't get is

Why are they going to sell Coffee?

Its BAD for students!

It makes our brain works slower, the sugar rush will only last for 2-3 hours

Same for chocolate! >.<

There was a chalkboard there as well

And what's written on it were K-POP bands and artists

Shinee, B3st, SNSD

No SUJU! TT_TT

Can I take a chalk and write that? XD

Lessons was

Fine except for Biology

Everyone was very confused

But we managed to do the task

The other lessons were as per normal

During lunch, I slept

I dreamed of something as well

I dreamed of Mukuro (From K.H.R) ._.

... I know who had caused me to dream about him

J-A-S-M-I-N-E!!!

She's been drawing him, Hibari and Tsuna during lesson on her papers! xD

I think I dreamed of Mukuro because...

He's a pineapple head =/

And Pineapple sure stood out among the other two...

I miss Pineapple juice!

The last time I drank it was 5 years ago

Yumm.... The pineapple itself in the juice is soo crunchy and refreshing!!!!

I was awaken from a random speech spoken loudly by a certain classmate of mine.

I wasn't irritated but amused.

He sounds like an Ustaz giving out speeches like that ones I saw in Malaysian channels xD

But he wasn't talking about religious stuff , if I'm not wrong he's talking about bicycles.

Well, I didn't hear the whole speech xD

Okay forget it

I think the only anime character voice I could imitate is Happy =w=;;

Aye Sir! xD

... I'm rambling about nonsense again

Hmm...

2011-06-25T11:53:00.000-07:00

Some person added me on Facebook, claiming that he's Sebastian Ikanbilis

And now...

I got sucked into role playing as a guest invited to the Phantomhive Manor...

What a joke...

*plomps on the floor*

2011-06-24T21:27:00.000-07:00

And I'm back!
Why the lack of blog posts?
The reason to that is
Suddenly, my laptop's internet connection disappeared
Although it didn't really matter to me
The internet have left me with nothing to do
Well, that shall explain why I never went to MSN, Facebook, Twitter, DeviantArt, Youtube
Suddenly today, its back on O_O
I guess internet need their rest too ,huh?

Ah school is starting
PANIC!
Not because of school but
I'm broke
AND I NEED MONEY TO BUY FOOLSCAP, ACCOUNTING PAPER AND NEW HAIRBAND!
My sister broke my hairband
And my foolscap is diminishing due to lots of Maths and Biology revision at home
...

Anyway, I had a massive headache yesterday so I didn't study at night
Instead, I started doodling on my drawing tablet
I don't have the picture with me...
I'm using my brother's laptop xD

Ever wonder why most people do their reflections best in the toilet?

Going to school is much more better for me
You know why?
(Heh but soon, I will complain that I don't want to go to school anymore! xD )
To escape myself from home
Its so noisy lately that I feel like taping everyone's mouth here!

Today is Cosfest...
AH I wanna go
Although I've been going for the past 2 years
The reason I want the urge to go is to buy a Natsu Bookmark =w=
GRAAAAAAWWWWWRRR! :D

Too bad though
No money xD
My ez-link card is empty as well
I hope my parent get their pay soon
If I can't top up my ez-link card
No school for me!

So the holidays for me is
Nah nothing much
Stayed at home, rot at home
Not going out...
Even though Raz invited me to go out
TT_TT Too broke to go out :(
Hopefully I'm able to hang out with the whole gang after O Levels!
I probably have enough money that point of time! ^^
I don't know why but I wanna go K-Box with you guys >.<
Never been one before!

Also, I want to play a part in the Animal group along with Ayakane_chan and Andrea :)
With the time, I'm sure I can make it ! ^^

Oh and also
Find a part time job :S
Hope I'm cut out for it!

P.S: I'm back to writing my fanfic!!! WOOOOOOOOO! Planned the introduction yesterday, today going to continue on the planning
Thank you Jasmine for the GREAT Fanfic Update! It gave me lots of inspirations! ^^
And Sorry for not being in MSN to check your fanfic >.< Blame the internet for that!

2011-06-16T05:13:00.001-07:00

The heat's killing me...

I woke up feeling not wanting to wake up

But I wake up anyway and my head was throbbing, my throat was painful

Not wanting to bath straight away, I grabbed my sis's DS Console and played Ace Attorney for awhile xD

While I was playing, the game suddenly hanged on me

And I didn't save... Pfffft oh well

Wanted to study but didn't

My head was going round and round

Maybe its because of the heat or something

Suddenly, a friend of mine called me out of the blue and complained to me that another friend of ours didn't reply her sms

The funny thing is, I mistook the friend as my other friend , (Ayakane) and I was speechless xD

So I just explained she was busy

Then I smsed her again saying that Ayakane is on attachment and can't answer the phone

Then she replied me, "Not Ros, its Raz"

Felt so silly! XD

Their names are similar that's for sure >.<

And how can I even think that Ayakane and this friend even would met? XD

What was I thinking?! xDDD They don't even know each other! hahaha !

Oh well xD Its quite amusing though

My head is still throbbing as I wrote

Since I have nothing to do around 7pm-8pm

Lately, I've been watching Fairy Tail and Lucky Star at Animax (Mon-Fri)

Although its just repeating the season... Oh well, no harm watching them again with the watching via television atmosphere...

Heck what am I blabbering about

Meh, I had nothing to do while I wait for praying time so why not?

Besides, its about time Animax subbed the shows instead of dubbing them =v=

Now I'm blogging to wait for 8.30pm

Some of you guys might know why I'm waiting for 8.30pm

I feel like buying a new bookmark all of a sudden

Lets see... I have

4 if I'm not wrong

Kagamine Twins (or Lovers) Bookmark from Miss Thong xD

Singapore Wildlife Bookmark (Gotten for free)

My very own favorite pairing bookmark (Buahaha!)

And... Hitachin Twins (FanArt)Bookmark from Miss Thong as well xD

Somehow... I want more...

Free ones, bought ones. Heh xD

2011-06-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

While I'm typing this post

My eyes hurt, my head hurt and my nose is so itchy and annoying

Going to be sick again?

Now... How many times have I fallen sick already? >.<

More than 4 for the past few months

Listening to ...

The title is too long xD

Its in Japanese

Something about love but its sang by a guy xD

Which I find it weird

Usually I found these kind of songs sang by women xD

Oh well, its nice xD

But I'll get tired of it soon anyway

Buahaha! (Don't you notice that this became my favorite word to type it out?)

Now I'm bored

bored bored bored bored

The internet has nothing for me to do

And my DS game, Harvest Moon Grand Bazaar

I married to the guy I want

Now, I'm so lazy to play xD

Since there's nothing else to get excited in the game

...BORED!

Raz smsed me if I wanted to go Sentosa next Tuesday

First reaction was "O_O Not enough bus fare!"

Oh well, there goes me and money

Well, can't help it, I don't have any money on me currently

Actually I do. $10 but I reserved that to pay for the AYC Donations :3

2011-06-14T07:10:00.000-07:00

Anti Anime, please do not read this post =v=

I've been reading discussions in the KKM fandom

To get inspiration to write my fanfic of course

I'm glad that they're still active xD

(Heck someone even mentioned that it started broadcasting again in Japan! The show that is)

*mutters* truthfully... I don't want a 4th season, i would rather want them to remake the whole anime and make it follow the novel plot. *grumbles grumbles*

WooooooooooooooooooooooT!

But you know what?

Instead of getting inspired to write my fanfic

I got inspired to draw the 27th King =3=

Help???? >.<

My tablet is dying TT_TT

I think I have to buy a new one

... Well, that's what you get for buying cheap stuff from Bugis!

You know the building in Bugis where they sell cheap laptops, PSPs, Hanphones, Computers and other tech?

Yep I bought my tablet there a year ago

And now... The pen is dying on me $@#%@#@!

Not the batteries. But while I'm writing or drawing with it,

it suddenly hangs. The cursor that is

... Oh well

Now doing nothing but typing this

Buaha...

...I'm hungry

2011-06-14T06:38:00.001-07:00

Just finished watching Tarzan in Disney Channel

GOSH!

It brings me such a nostalgic feeling xD

Tarzan was the very first movie I've watched in the cinema xD

And watching it just now fantastic >.<

Gorillas, Elephants, Poachers

Buahaha! Its probably because the movie focuses on Nature, that's probably why I love it =/

I love the movie Bambi too xD

Classic Disney Movie

Lion King? I don't really love it nor do I hate it xD

Now, I'm bored

It's night time. I don't wanna study

Just now, I wanted to do my SS homework

So I settled down outside,put down my worksheet, foolscap paper and pencil box

And sat on the floor

Then I stood up, went to the kitchen and made some Iced Peach Tea

Went out and sat down again

I glanced towards my foolscap paper.

Unconsciously, I picked up my pencil and drew

Pffffffttttt XD

I didn't even know I was drawing O_O

When I finished it, I looked at it and what I see is a familiar character I've create 3 years ago

I forgot his name but he wore a headband wrapped around his forehead

And I was playing Fairy Tail-OST-Main Theme via my handphone

Booming loud.

When I looked at the clock, its 5.30pm

I quickly on the TV and watched drama

There goes my homework

Undone xD

I still have History, Science, Maths and English

Oh and POA

Ahhh had not done it

Raz smsed me if I'm free next week

Without a thought, I replied her "$"

XD That was by accident!

But... I think its my first reaction when someone asked me to go out

I leave the details up to her. Until then, I shall wait

If only I can snap the picture and put it here!

Too bad I don't have my handphone usb wire !

2011-06-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

Blogging once again!

Ah I'm sooo lazy to do my homework!

And now its the 3rd week

>.<

What have I been doing?

Playing the DS: Ace Attorney, Kingdom Hearts 328/2 days and Harvest Moon Grand Bazaar

Buahahahaha!

Well, not catching up anime. I only watch them every Saturday xD

Oh did I mention I finished two books?

Warriors: Omen Of The Stars, Sign Of The Moon

The other book, I forgot the title xD

WARRIORS WAS AWESOME! >.<

Not going to say more xD

If Natsu (From Fairy Tail) is a Dragon Slayer(Not slaying really. They're just people who learnt to use a dragon's powers)

Then I'm an Owl/Cat/Fish Slayer!!!!!

... Nah, throw away the fish Slayer, that position is taken by the flying Cat in the Anime =v=

What does an Owl have for a power?

360 perfect vision! ( I would so love that!)

Being Wise! (Ooo!)

FLY!

Sleep in the day and active at night!

Great sense of hearing!

Cat?

Slash people with my claws!

Run at high speed!

Great sense of smell!

Night Vision! (Owl too though)

Oh sorry for my randomness xD

After reading Jasmine updated fanfic

It reminded me of MY Fanfic about the King's troubles to help his country to get through of a horrible plague.

I guess only 1 or 2 people know what I'm talking about

Golly, I have yet to think about it

Actually, I have lots of ideas, they're all planned out last year with Jasmine but I just don't have the writing mood T_T

Every author and artist undergo these periods where they will undergo a certain "block"

In order to break it, is to wait for the inspiration to come to them

>.< I think I have to watch it again in order to get inspired!

My stupid lappy here, is so frustrating

I tried playing a CD, it RUNS SO SLOW!

Wondering where my old pc went to?

My dad took it and replaced with a 2nd hand laptop>.<

MY DRAMA CDS! MY PICTURES! MY STORIES!

I want to help out the animals at the shelter!

But I have to wait until my exams are over to be free!!!!

Oh oh, Ayakane and Midori? Interested?

Its held at Pasir Ris. We are to help the animals there every Sunday :)

I'll give you information about it more if you are interested.

And that's all people!

Cheeriio!

Heck, don't act like that XD

Lets end with a GoodBye!

2011-06-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

I feel like doing nothing but just sitting down and doing nothing

Haha!

I think I just repeated twice

Pssssssshhhhaaaaaa!

Oh well, get back to business.

Nah I never work so no business

At least... Not yet

buahahahaha!

You know what do cats do when they're bored?

Sleep.

Chase Their Tails

Stare at the windows

Or Meow for food

You know what owls do when they're bored?

They go Hooot Hooot All day

You know what fishes do when they're bored?

They swim backwards

They just stare at you with their mouths open and close

You know what I do when I'm bored?

Nothing.

Sleep

Eat.

Play DS

Just stare out of the window

What do you do when you're in an awkward moment?

Take out your phone and pretend that you had an SMS

And start pushing buttons so that other people thinks that you're replying to a sms

Psssshhhaaaaaaa! xD

So, whenever I see anyone looks like replying to an SMS

Either that means the person is EITHER REALLY REPLYING

Or just trying to get out of the conversation xD

2011-06-10T07:10:00.001-07:00

Changed my Blogskin again since some readers have a problem in viewing it @.@

Maybe someday I'll create my own blogskin

Just looking at my previous post

... Its so embarrassing!

The drawing's horrible! xD

Maybe I'll take it down later.

At these kind of times, I just want to go to school and escape from complications

At least when I'm tired from school, I won't argue back, right?

Sometimes I have to wonder

I'm almost an adult now but yet

Why do I cry so easily?

I may look strong towards my friends at school since I never cried in front of them before

But at home, I'm such a crybaby

My tears got teary just by listening to my mother's discouragement towards me

Or calling me Arrogant or Stupid back at home

But why did I cried? I don't feel this way when people call me arrogant back at school in the past.

Why is this happening?

We're not suffering as much as we did in the past anymore so why are you so...

I don't know, unreasonable?

This is the reason why I fail Maths you say?

How could you say that? What does forgetting to do chores have anything to do with failing Maths?

Me? Arrogant?

Isn't an arrogant person is one who boasts on his or her's achievements, thinks that she's so cool or pretty and think she's the best in the world?

I don't get it.

Why must we suffer, yet the younger ones are spared?

We were given $2 per day for school.

She spent it on Old Chang Kee

Then why scold her for doing so? Isn't Old Chang Kee food too?

Sometimes we got bored with the canteen food so why can't we change a taste of food for once?

We're given $2 per day, yet we never complained to you that it isn't enough

I have to admit, it isn't enough for a person who eats a lot like me but I never said that to you.

I just, let it be. So be it, its better than nothing.

Be grateful for what I have attitude.

But yet, you scolded us saying that we keep on spending money everyday.

$2... We spend whole $2 to eat a plate of rice. Why were we being scolded?

Heck, sometimes, we don't even receive pocket money

What exactly do you want us to do?

Don't eat, save the money then give it back to you?

We're Singaporeans

We are supposed and encouraged to mix around with different races

Yet why are we scolded for having too much Chinese friends?

How can you just assume that?

We have Malay friends too.

How can you insult my friends like that?

Is being a Chinese or A Malay any difference?

What is wrong with you?

Don't you have Chinese and Indian friends? Even I've met them.

Aren't you mixed Chinese as well?

Isn't my dad mixed Japanese and Boyanase?

Why are you saying all this?

You're our dearest one. You're the one who taught us about our religion so why are you doing this?

Our religion too encouraged us to mix with different races and religion.

Even you no longer pray.

Yet you keep on scolding her that she doesn't know much about our religion

Isn't she following your path?

How I wish I could advise you, to go and pray again.

To enroll my siblings to Religious Classes.

But I'm just afraid, that you would scold me and lecture again.

So be it. You can't read my post either.

Only my readers are able to.

Or my haters...

Thanks mum, for yet again degrading my confidence level.

But still, I still love you.

What can I do? You're my mother. You've raised me up

It's probably my fault for arguing back to you.

I should have just shut my mouth up and let you scold me, spout nonsense at me or insulting me.

I should have just thought, "She doesn't mean it. Everything will be okay the next day so shut up and let her be"

2011-06-08T10:02:00.000-07:00

Haha! I suddenly felt like drawing

Looks like it turned out bad, as I expected pffft wahaha!

Oh Ayakane_chan? Do you know who this guy is? Ring any bells? xD Although he looks a bit different from the one I drew 3 years ago xD

2011-06-08T06:28:00.001-07:00

Listening to To The Sky By Adam Young/Owl City

~Chase Your Dreams~

But Mr.Young, I don't have any current dreams

However so, my long life dream is to give birth to a pair of Twins! xD

(Psssshhhaaa! Random)

Of course, I can't work to have a pair of twins, these kind of thing is all up to Him

~Raise the wind and, TAKE TO THE SKY!~

When I was young, around Primary school days,

I wanted to be a nurse

Then my goal changed into being a Manga Artist after getting into Anime when I was 12

When I got to Secondary School, I wanted to be an Animator and a Manga Artist

Earlier this year, I wanted to be a child psychologist

Now, those dreams are turned into dust, due to my low confidence and lost of interest

Although, how I wish I could be an adventurer.

Venture every parts of the world, learning their history, discovering great treasures or myths.

Haha! I need a whole lot of money to do that!

I'm wondering...

Have my parents been to Mecca yet?

I guess I'll ask my mum tomorrow

If not, then hopefully when I made lots of money, I'll bring my whole family to Mecca.

Another dream to accomplish!

Correction, that wasn't a dream. Its a goal that I must conquer in the future

2011-06-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

Heh xD

I've been telling myself I want to study in the afternoon

But somehow, for some reason which I do not know off

I always suddenly fell asleep on the Sofa after eating my breakfast/lunch ._.

And then waking up at 5.30pm, my mood to study is gone

So can anyone tell me why I fell asleep even though I was not even feeling sleepy?

I can't study at night, somehow.

My brain's active for studying during the day

This kind of thing is bothering me

Is it some kind of syndrome or psychological problem due to stress or something?

And when I woke up from these naps, my head was throbbing

Not only that

Those naps were filled with nightmares

Nasty ones

Listening to Smile By Avril Lavigne

Ahhh xD Love the Chorus

"Smile all the way, no matter how tough life is" xD

But that line was not from the song, it came from one of my sister's OC :X

My head is still throbbing though

I wonder what is the cause for this sleeping thing

I usually could not sleep in hot weather

But I did.

And I woke up sweating like mad on the sofa xD

I hope to conquer this problem soon

I want to study already!

I must be mad, wanting to study

I've planned to conquer my Maths and Science during the Holidays

The other subjects are doing okay so I'll conquer them in class

"The reason why I I I , I smile."~

When the holidays came, I want to go to school

But when school was going on, I don't want to go to school xD

But when holidays are coming to an end,

We students will panic and scream " I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!"

2011-06-06T03:53:00.001-07:00

Went out with my family (Excluding my dad) today

We never really go anywhere

We just went to the nearest Shopping Mall in Sengkang

That is the Compassvale Point

Before that, we went to the Polyclinic to eat our favourite small tuck shop, Uncle Tony ^^

Seriously! The Mee Siam and Mee Rebus there are really worth it!

For only $2.90, the soup is so savory and the noodles were a bit too much that even I have trouble finishing it

After that, we went to Popular to buy my siblings 2B and 5B books

I wandered off to see the Secondary/O Level section

And instead of looking at the guide books there,

I began to flip through Literature Novels from Shakespeare,

Macbeth, Romeo & Juliet and another one I forgot the title

My sis told me the story Macbeth, (she watched the play in Esplanade)

Macbeth died in a battle.

I didn't knew Macbeth was a guy and she told me that the play, Adrian Pang played as Macbeth 8D

Seriously Shakepeare? I know you have he a great talent for playwriting

But making your main characters in every play you make die ?

Its a bit too much to me xD (Except for one play, I forgot the name ._.)

Speaking of this, I remembered DJH telling me that for every Essay he read that scored high marks,

Most of them, the main character died. ^^;;

We then went to Comic Connection

I was just looking around, quite bored actually

Then I heard some girls talking about what type of Manga they read

One of them said she loved to read Boy Love

Another said she love to read Ecchi (Pervertic)

I was like O_O

I wonder how they can talk like that so openly and loudly xD

I don't know why I felt shocked at that time though.

On the way home, my sis talked to me like an aunty

I never really reply, I just listen to her blabbering about her school life

I must say, her school life is pretty dramatic

One of her ex-friends was diagnosed with cancer

CANCER?! That shocked me.

One of her teammate in her CCA mother passed away

And her teammates cry easily

When she told me about her CCA stuff and then everyone(except for the guys) cried I was like...

"Hey! You're living in REALITY! Not in Dramas or Anime! You got to be kidding me!"

Oh well, of course I didn't say anything, it would be a waste of breath

Let her read it here instead xD

At Cold Storage, I saw a very tall, quite good looking guy with his girlfriend

I was like "Wow..."

Then when we exited the store, I saw the couple again

This time, I saw the guy patting on his girlfriend's head gently

And I went "Awwww!" xD

Never in my whole life, I have seen a guy acting like that towards a girl

Usually I saw guys kissing them, touching their waists

But this is just cute! xD

Its a total different reaction from me seeing a couple kissing

When I happen to accidentally saw that , I would go,

"Tsk." -turn away-

I don't really feel annoyed or anything, just felt uncomfortable xD

I was supposed to be going out with Rachel to study but...

I didn't get a chance to ask my mum if I can go to school to study

She seemed to be in a bad mood almost everyday and whenever I asked something, she simply ignored me or scold me

Isn't it better for not asking then?

When I didn't ask, she scold me too

I have no idea what am I suppose to do

I know she's struggling with affairs with my dad and money problems

How I wish I could tell her not to vent anger towards me or my 2nd sister

But I know her pattern, we'll die if we tell her that

I wanted to tell her to not rely on my dad anymore but well, its not my position to say anything really.

If only I'm working right now, maybe things would be a lot easier for my mum.

2011-06-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I've updated

Even though there were exciting things happened to me and my friends

I just don't feel like typing it

And, the internet was cut off 2 days ago

Its still cut though

I'm using MIO Singtel Internet instead of Starhub

And its slow

The past is brought up

The past deeds are brought up

The past sins are too brought up as well

Why is this happening all over again?

I'm in a loss right now

Its been happening for a week now

And its driving me crazy

This rate, I can't study at home, yet alone WANTING to go back home!

Can't you please think before acting rashly?

Why is this happening all over again?

Do you want to get yourselves hurt again?

Do you want to get yourselves cash strapped again?

Do you want to get yourselves in Court , AGAIN?

Do you want to wait 2 years for the case to finally settle itself?

Why are you guys doing this to yourselves?

Why can't you just keep quiet, and do your own stuff?

Work, sleep

There's no need for you guys to even talk to each other

I know you don't love each other anymore

You just got back together again because of us

But think about it,

With you two making so much noise and things are kept on throwing in the air,

Shooting at each other about the past, having affairs or what not

What's the point of getting together again for our sake?

What's the point? Isn't it better for you guys to be separated , to live without worries or insults among each other?

But of course

I'm not in the position to decide

If I try to interfere,

Things will just got much more uglier

But sometimes I have to wonder

Are adults really that stupid, unreasonable and dense??

I don't care what you say about me

If you don't accept me, why won't you just kill me then?

I told you that so many times, no response

No point spouting vulgarities to me which I don't EVEN UNDERSTAND!

I won't change! I will only change if I think its good for myself

There is no point changing yourself just to please others

What am I going to do?

I don't have any motivation

I don't have any leads

So, why am I studying for?

It's too late to think about it now

Its June.

I have to use most of the days to study

Sorry for the negative post

I wish you all the best to you readers.

2011-05-31T05:57:00.000-07:00

Today's class was fine
Even though I felt really sleepy
I doodled on the papers to keep me awake
During our recess,
The others wanted to go 800+ to buy Bubble Tea
I didn't want to go because I was hungry and I want to eat xD
So I prepared to eat alone when suddenly, they back xD

During English , we're learning how to write a speech
It looks easier than Formal letter writing
I never get many marks for it, mostly just pass or fail >.<

POA, noticed that Teacher was sick
Mr Ivan Tan, instead of staying at home to rest, he came to school to teach us
Touched :)

After school, there was actually an Enrichment Workshop
But we didn't go
I don't get it you know
We've been attending these kinds of workshops ever since Secondary 3
Were they even of any use?
Instead of feeling motivated
I felt annoyed and irritated when I attended those workshop
Maybe its just me but I just don't like it when the people over there act all so happy and act as if they know us
They make us do group works , with people from different classes
I don't really like that, instead of doing something, I ended up just watching whatever they do
One of the instructors advise me that I should open up and speak up more otherwise when I go to the working world, I'll have a hard time to survive
I know that, I need time okay?
Friends who hanged out with me, didn't you realise I never eye contact with you guys when I was from Sec 1 until Sec 3?
I always look at the ground when talking to you guys
But now, I can talk face to face, eye contact even with my classmates and teachers
If I attend those workshop again, I bet they will advise (more like nag to me) that I have to speak up
Its not as if I can gain up my confidence over one day yea know
I've taken a big step and I'm still working on it
No point going there again and then receive the same thing over and over

They chose people like J.K Rowling or Lady Gaga as examples to show how they became successful
Which is, I think its ridiculous
I would rather want...
I forgot his name, remember the guy who was born with no legs and arms?
If he would to come to our school and give us a talk, then I'll attend it
He is one of the ones who inspired people around the wiorld

Is there any way to get me in the mood to study?
Probably because I don't know what to do after I graduate, I don't even feel like studying
Can I work after my O levels and don't continue study in JC or Poly?

2011-05-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

Okay, I've conquered the MT Paper 1 and 2
I don't want to talk about the content, since there's no point regretting it now that it is over
During the paper 2, I fell asleep, with my hand on my forehead and my head was still up
So that is why the individuates don't bother waking me up
When the person said, "You have about 15 minutes left"
I woke up and rushed through my Comprehension >.<

Ah I was planning to do maths
But I feel so lethargic today
No doubt, its coming

(Anti-anime please do not read.)
Now, reading forums in Mangafox =w=
Watching people debate which one is best among the 4, One piece, Bleach Naruto or Fairy Tail
Pfffffttt I had nothing better to do, like as if
I'm supposed to be studying
Looks like One Piece is winning, I can't do anything, never catched it up...
Too long >.<
Last time I've watched was when I was Primary 5, watched it in last time OKTO channel called Kids Central.
For Bleach... The story plot is kinda dying in the later chapters so I stopped reading and the anime has too much fillers
Naruto... I stopped catching them up for awhile a week ago xD Probably continue after my O levels
My own bias is Fairy Tail of course =w=
Yea know why? A Fantasy fan like me love magic,magic and more magic!
Wizards, weird animals, flying cats and monster xD
In my point of view, the 4 of them can't be compared,
They're totally 4 different stories, characters and what not.
They're awesome for the way they are.

2011-05-28T03:45:00.000-07:00

So what its going to be?
Do you prefer cats? Or do you prefer dogs? xD
The video its a been silly really
"Cat rule, Dogs drool!"
That's what the rap said >.<
But truthfully
I love them both <3
They're both loveable animals xD
Speaking of dogs
Yesterday Jasmine, Farisha and I walked home together
Then we saw a golden-brown dog, playing with the owner and relatives (or friends)
"So kawaii! " Me and Jasmine thought
Then the dog ran to Jasmine, and Jasmine was like "Eh cute cute! Guai!"
Then the dog ran to wards me and looked at me
I just smiled xD
After we stared for a few seconds, the dog ran back to its owner xDDD
Farisha ran away hehe xD
The dog was too excited I guess that it wanted to play with strangers? xD
My nee-san told me once
Animals, especially cats, dogs and birds can sense which people are kind and good people
So maybe that's the reason why it ran towards us? xD
Heh, its the first time a dog ran towards me with eagerness in its eyes xDDDD
A cat will usually walk to me , like the Siam near Ayakane's house when it saw me
Once, I played with her for awhile and it accidentally scratched my leg
It isn't her fault, the owner is supposed to trim its nails xDD
Although yesterday, you know the pet shop located at Tampines St 81?
The one that has 2 dogs and one ginger cat ?
Well yesterday, I was around that area
I saw the two dogs in the shop, I stared at it and the orange-white one barked at me
I just laughed and walked away, catching up with my mum
Then I saw a customer, carrying a black-white dog and she tried to step into the shop
Suddenly, the orange-white dog barked crazily, jumping up and down and scratched the customers legs
Oh boy ._.
The customer's dog didn't react though, it didn't bark back but instead, it wagged its tail
The customer is forced to step out of the shop for awhile
Oh boy ._.
I know that the smaller species of dogs are really noisy
For reasons unknown
And the bigger ones, like I've encountered yesterday or like the Golden Retriever
Are very quiet xD
I remembered by my cousin telling me that she went to her friend's house to study
And the friend owned a Golden Retriever
At first she was scared, but the dog didn't do anything or barked
It just sat at the corner, or just roaming around the house, watching them
When its time to go home, my cousin asked which part of the dog is not wet, and the friend told her its the head
So My cousin patted it, saying "Good Doggy!" and said their goodbyes
xD

You know what?
I've yet to start studying my Malay @,@
TV distracted me, not its fault, my own fault
Meeep.

2011-05-28T01:03:00.000-07:00

I need somebody to talk to
Anyone willing to do so?
Oh well, better concentrate for this coming Monday's MT O level

The lyrics to the song "Closer" is true
The verse,
"The closer you get to something, the harder it is to see it"
It is true
But oh well, we all know how hard it is to communicate sometimes

The Meet The Parents session was fine
I have to back up on my Maths and Science
As usual... Its been like that ever since I came to Secondary school
I always have problems with these two subjects
But last year, I passed them during the N levels
Miss V. told my mum that she had taught me for 3 years, but still I never talk to her xD
She wants me to ask what I don't know, and use the teachers
I never had thought of asking, I do ask questions during Maths though
I guess for science, I just thought I'm okay so I didn't ask anything
After the meeting, my mum nagged and advised me
She told me that my mother's sibling's wife, always looked down on her status
The same thing goes to one of my aunt's husband, he too looked down on my mum
This is ridiculous
My mum had done a pretty good job in raising us 4!
4 years without my father, she raised us brilliantly!
What is up with you adults?

2011-05-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

AHHHH!!!
Panic! Panic!
Excitement! Excitement!!!
Warriors : Omen Of The Star : The Sign Of The Moon IS AVAILABLE NOWWW!!!
AND ITS NOT ON LOAN!
3 of them are available in Tampines, while 2 at Sengkang
OH THAT'S IT!
I'm GOING TO RUSH TO THE LIBRARY TOMORROW AFTER SCHOOL!
I hope PLEAse PLEASE PLEASE
Please be available tomorrow!
If not in Tampines, then in Sengkang!!!!
PLEASE!!! I'm begging you kids not to borrow all 3 of them?
Pretty please?
Pffft as if that would happen
Don't worry, I won't read it just yet
I'll wait until my MT O'level is done on Monday
THEN I'LL READ IT
But as you know me, I'll be afraid to even read the book, wanting to save the book for later xD
On top of that
The Warlock, Book 5 of The Alchemyst Trilogy
Is in the Library titles!
But they have yet to buy it
BUT ITS STILL GREAT?!
Oh don't mind me, I'm throwing my excitement in the atmosphere
You don't like it, leave it and leave me alone to kyah in silence

Alright! Time to revise and do some exercises on Malay Paper 2!
I really wanna pass my Paper 2 this time

Oh and Raz?
I'm glad you're fine ^^
I was so delighted when I found out you actually tagged at my blog xD
Haven't heard from you since a month ago
All the best in your new path!

2011-05-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

These cats need a home
If only I live in my own apartment,
I will adopt you kitties
At least 2
Well, just have to wait until down

School was fine
Me and Farisha had a lovely chat
On what we talked about, I won't say it here

Today, absolutely lethargic
I didn't want to sleep
I lay on the floor in the living room, beside the sofa
Then I fell asleep there
Missed my Zohor and Asar Prayers because of it
And the 5.30pm show >.<
Looks like the time of the month for me is coming soon

Mother Tongue O level is next Monday!!!
Prepare for it!!!!!!

2011-05-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Ah Mother Tongue Intensive was not bad
The fact that time flies fast during the lessons
And despite the fact I was alone @.@
I wonder why? Hmm
Oh, I was the only girl who needed to stay back for remedial
How embarrassing was that? >///<
Since Mdm Umi had high expectations about me since I'm from the NT stream
But you know, the reason why I could not get above B4 is the Paper 2
Not the Comprehension, I'm good at that
The very first section of the paper was the problem
I usually got all wrong for that, and 10 marks gone as a result
My Paper 1 was fine, in fact, I actually can score high marks for it

Our Co-form teacher nagged at us today
But I don't blame her
She cared for us, she wants us to pass the O levels with flying colors
And I appreciate it
She told us to write a journal entry before we go to bed every night
And bring it to class the next morning for her to check
I think its a rather good idea
I love writing, so I'll deal with it xD
Looks like I have to buy a new exercise book
She also will be contributing to the class by buying for us Strait Times
With her own money, for us every day
Thank you so much.

I was thinking while I was walking back home
And I was talking to myself xD
Thinking about which subjects I have to score A1
I thought about it and decided it would be POA, Humanities and English
For Maths and Science, B4
And Mother Tongue, B4 as well but we only need 5 subjects
That would be a total of... 9 points
It seems impossible yea?

When our teacher asked us who does not want to go to JC or Poly
I had wanted to raise my hand but was too embarrassed to do so
But I don't want to go to ITE either
I just don't know where to go
And going to poly seems expensive...

While I was talking to myself, I looked straight ahead
And shouted "Ice Cream!"
Luckily, I was alone, so nobody heard what I just shouted xD
If there was, they probably think I'm crazy, suddenly shouting like that
So I brisked walk to the Ice Cream Umbrella and bought Chocolate Chip Peppermint in a cup :D
Its a nice day for a cup of ice cream!
Weather has been so humid lately!
But we have no one to blame for the weather but ourselves
I'm sure in the other countries where 4 seasons exist,
It would be over 40 degrees during summer @.@

2011-05-23T05:39:00.000-07:00

I've just read my twitter
A lot of twits
And my style, just scroll down and read what interests me
Read KevJumba's twit
Ryan is forcing him to watch Naruto 3 hours ago
Are they bored or something ? xD

2011-05-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

Here's the song I was writing about at my previous post
Only, its in English :D
Its as original as the Japanese version ^^ Sang by the same person
Hmm... Okay lar, quite shuai bah.
Too bad, I don't really look at a person's looks xD

2011-05-23T04:28:00.000-07:00

Ah I'm currently addicted to a current song
Called Closer by Inoue Joe
Its been a while since I'm into Japanese songs
Lately I was into English songs (Like last week)
I guess this week would be J-POP xD

The lyrics were meaningful to me
They bring me inspiration to write something
I'll post a part of it :

Though there are people that say
Helping someone is hypocritical
Each person Can be trusted, or can be doubted, so...


Let's say that

Even if you are hypocritical
If you saved someone because of it
That would be real, more than anything

I'll keep a handful of courage in my heart
To use to live through tomorrow
And I'll never take it for granted

And that's all for the inspirational part xD
Oh gosh, the whole SEc 4E/5N had to write an essay for the principal to mark =.=
Bad timing for me , I'm currently undergoing writing block
And we have to pass it up by THIS WEDNESDAY!
This is so frustrating =.=
Oh well, might as well listen to songs to get some ideas =/

School was fine, even though it is quiet without Jasmine, Raz and Farisha
Chemistry was fun , even without Jasmine
Its Practical
And I'm able to do stuff on my own
I keep putting the glowing splint near the solution to make is relight itself
Can't believe a simple light can be so exciting

We had Biology Practical too
I prefer Chemistry than Biology practical >.<
One,
Biology we have to draw neatly
Two,
Sometimes, we just look what we are looking for like today's lesson
WE needed to use the Microscope and eye hurt after looking at it too long
And I have no idea what to look at, I only saw black spots xD
Our Biology teacher was hilarious xD
I have to admit, she really does resemble Jasmine's sister O_O
Both appearance and personality xD
Me and Rachel kept on getting rejected because of our work
Instead of feeling insulted, Rachel laughed while I smiled xD
For me , she said this to me,
"Aiyoh! What is this? So untidy ah? Go redo!"
LOL, weirdly enough, I didn't feel anything negative but can't help but find it amusing because she really does resemble Jasmine's jie jie xD
While we were redoing it,
"These two aunties, still doing so slow. Aiyah! I don't want wait anymore, I want go buy bubble tea."
But we managed to finish on time xD

Ah T_T Tomorrow will be Mother Tongue Intensive
I wonder what are we going to do the whole day
I think I'll fell asleep half the day, and because of my malay teacher's personality,
He won't wake people who are sleeping up xD
At least I'll finish up whatever I'm doing

2011-05-22T03:39:00.000-07:00

This is so heartwarming ^^
Youtube Star Kevin A.K.A Kevjumba actually used his time to fly to Kenya and help the children ^^
His appearance had brought happiness to the children there
Making them feel that they do belong in this world
I hope I could do the same thing in the future

2011-05-21T03:59:00.000-07:00

I don't know what is wrong with me
I woke up around 2.30pm today T_T
Not only that, I kept on changing sleeping places
Like for every half an hour, I change from the sofa to my bed
Then back to sofa again
Nowadays I've been sleeping on the sofa =w=
And the sofa is not long enough for me
So my feet would be hanging at the sofa arm rests
Waking up with my legs sore xD
Although, the living room seems scary at night , as if something's going to pop out
That won't happen of course xD

I suddenly had an idea for my OC's trait
The OC which take after me I mean
Oh well ... shhh here no one is interested xD

Now, I don't have the mood to read books or fanfiction
Even manga
Yesterday, I tried reading a book during MT lesson
But I just don't have the mood, even though the book is a good book
Well, kinda anyway

(For anti-anime, do not read this section)
Now actually, I have the mood to watch Naruto =v=
Which is ridiculous
I've finished Season 1 to 4 (Shipudden)
... Chiongster xD
But I'll stop watching it I guess
Since the next story arc is about.. Sasuke =.=
I don't really watch, I skipped the battle scenes xD
Except for... Sai, Gaara and Shikamaru O_O
(I can't choose who I love more between these 3 >.<)

(Okay, anti-anime, you guys can read this section onwards xD)
Now, I feel like watching dramas
>.<
Chinese dramas xDDDD
I should watch malay dramas... Since MT O level is on 30th May T_T

Ah, Avril's new music video, Smile, is out
I can't find it in youtube though T_T
Not out yet T_T
I wanna put here~
I love the chorus, but I don't really like the verse
Still, she's aweshum still <3
(I'm heterosexual by the way)

Ah yes I should practice my Malay
Surprisingly, I passed my MT
._. My essay, turned out I got 33/50
O_O But I got the word wrong!!!
I think... Maybe the marker was just anyhow mark? T_T
This is so frustrating
I was expecting me to fail my Essay for Malay
But instead, I failed my English Essay!
Oh boy, for English , I have no idea what I did wrong
I wrote like I always do, my own style
And my English Teacher told me to keep that up
And I did, but instead , almost all my descriptive sentences, were bracketed and penalized!
I'm not being complacent, since I still think I still have more to improve on
That's... Ridiculous!! Preposterous!
I've always written those sentences, why get penalized now?
My teacher told me that she will speak with the marker
I know I won't get high marks for the essay, because it was done last minute because I think too long
But failing it badly? Its just, I can't accept it
But if my teacher told me the problem, then I will change my ways of writing then
I hope...
Fancy me thinking about writing novels as a living =.=

So Let's see...
I failed Maths and Science. F9
Humanities and Mother Tongue. B4
English and POA. C6
If this keeps on, I never going to graduate
Oh well, its not that disheartening, I already thought to myself I won't do well for Mid year
Since at that point of time, I don't have the mood to study at all
Really now, I never studied Humanities because I wanted to focus on my Maths
But instead, I failed badly for Maths instead of the latter.
Got high marks for History to the boot =.=
Of course I was not happy. Because I studied for maths but yet I failed!
But I didn't study History and SS yet I passed ...
But then I thought to myself
What if I studied for Humanities? I would have done better
Maybe get over 30 for SS and over 4o for History
I don't know what to do for maths seriously
*sigh*
I know others failed all the subjects
Its because of the standard
Remember last year? A lot of us failed every subject because we weren't used to the new N level Standard
Its the same thing for this year.
We failed because we're not used to the O level standard.
Its okay! We have time!
We've finished our syllabus, now is the time to tackle the new system!
(Dudette, speak for yourself before motivating others!)

To Raz:
I wish you all the best in your decided path
Hope we still get in contact with each other
I'm sure you won't regret the path you've chosen
With a big SMILE :D

2011-05-17T21:32:00.000-07:00

I dream a variety of dreams last night
I have to admit, its great
I'm a dreamer, and I love to dream
That is why I love to sleep, so I can encounter these dreams
Most of the time, my dreams consists of deja vu
A day later, I encountered that scene in reality that I had in my dream
Almost every day

I'll share one of my dreams I dreamed about last night
I was walking home with Jasmine and I asked why her sister's relationship is complicated right now even though they're getting married
Jasmine replied me this,
"Actually, from the beginning, my sister was actually a guy"
I was shocked of course, then I went home and checked her sister's Facebook
I examined her profile picture
In my dream , I thought to myself "She does kinda look like a guy!"
Of course, all this is not true
This is one of those dreams that are just random

The other dreams I've dreamed about were too embarrassing to type it here
I'll write it down on my notebook
I will let people read it if the encountered that book and asked me if they could read it
That answer will be answered by then.

2011-05-17T03:56:00.000-07:00

Ah...Mid year exams are over
But that's just means that O levels are coming closer...
And closer...

During my Bio/Chem paper,
I wasn't really thinking about how to solve the questions
Instead, in my mind were completely different stuff that is irrelevant to the exams.
Below are the thoughts

"Hmm... Maybe I should use my own money to buy the ingredients..."
"Hmm... Maybe I should bake them on Fridays and Saturday nights while everyone is asleep."
"But where will I put the oven?"
"Ah yes, put the rice cooker somewhere else and put the oven there"
"If I do that, mum will get mad at me."
"Another reason why I should bake them at night while out mum's working"
"Ah ah... Ramadan is coming and I have yet to repay the days I missed fasting."
"I really should start on my story planning soon"
"Hmm... Should Kira be red or orange haired?"
"I really want a pretty boy in one of my stories... Who should it be?"
"Ah, I want a guy with spectacles too... Aww man... Who?"
"Maybe I should dump the spectacles fetish away and go with pretty boys"
"Maybe I should make my KKM fanfic into Wolfyuu instead of YuuRam"
"Should Wolfram die in the end? Nahh... Too many stories have Wolfram suffering.."
"I should make Yuuri suffer instead"
"Is the roti prata at 800+ nicer or the ones near the library?"
"The curry near the library is spicier , but the curry at 800+ is sweeter... So I can't compare.."

"Maybe I should help the animals with Ros during June Holidays"
"No, she don't have the same holidays as mine, and my june holidays are packed with school , remedials and stuff."
"Awww man, I wanna go SPCA and help the animals!"
"It's sooo hot!"
"Hmmm... Usually the ones I picked as an answer, its wrong. Might as well pick the option that I don't think it will be correct. So, B it is then."

Ah I spent my day today playing PSP
More like watching the theater
And after watching the videos in the game, my mind was in action
Interpreting the mysteries in the game
... Like literature T_T

2011-05-15T06:25:00.000-07:00

My mother told me that maybe the cause of my siblings keep on getting sick
Was due to an act of another being in our house
Muslim readers would know what I'm talking about

I know at my old house, Block 868, there were 2 of them
And my mum got possessed by it twice
Probably due to her weak heart or she accidentally hurt it
At that time, I was not really into my religion, so I presume that is was some kind of spirit
Now, after I succumbed to Islam , I finally found out the truth behind that incident
Its not because of ghosts or spirits,
Its because of the other creatures that Allah had created besides us humans, angels and animals.
I won't explain it here, if non-Muslim readers wish to know about it more,
Its better to ask me directly or search Wikipedia.

If this is so, I have to do something
Since only my dad and I pray at home, it is my responsibility to keep the same incidents from happening
I have to learn the Ayat Kursi by myself since there is no one to teach me
This is the time where I shall rely the power of internet!

Now, its 9.36pm"

I wanna study
But I just can't T_T
No motivation yet again
I had a conversation with my sis earlier

Me : "I don't want to go to poly"
Sis: "Then go where? ITE?!"
Me : " I don't want to go to ITE or JC either"
Sis : " You don't want study anymore?"
Me: "Yea"
Sis : " Then what you want do ? Stay at home?"
Me: "Can I stay at home and write novels?"
Sis: "What?! Don't anyhow lar! You can't survive like that in Singapore!"
Me : "-sigh- "

A younger sister lecturing me
xDD

2011-05-14T04:38:00.000-07:00

I never knew being a Manga Artist or an Author is soo much work
Really, being chased by your editors,
The pressure of the deadline is getting close,
The feeling of not wanting to work because nothing inspires him
The intimidating feeling when you meet with other people after long hours of work alone
Hmm...
Really, it kinda sounds like I suited for this job (Haha!)
Being an author or an manga artist is a very hard job yet, the money worth is rather small

Ah... I feel like dying out of boredom or out of brain overload
Lately, I can't help but make up stories in my head,
Imagine my characters doing their scenes
GAH! Dossshiiii yo!
>.<
I don't feel like studying too xD
What a boring Saturday
Spent my day Playing PSP
Pity though, because I still didn't manage to defeat one stage (Experiment 211 from Disney's Lilo & Stitch )
Wasted my time xDDD

Now watching anime...
GAAAH! What is up with today's anime?!
Some are way too shoujo (Too girl's type)
Some are way too ecchi (Revealing, fan service for the perverts/Guys)
Some are just plain boring
GOSH!
Oh well, I guess time has come when I finally losing interest on Anime
(Naaah! Anime like Fairy Tail still excites me xD)
More like all the ideas of people's mind have been used up and no more original ideas are coming =/
At these times, I sure remember the old anime/cartoons I used to watch when I was a kid
Why does the image of Mickey Mouse saying "HotDog!" appeared in my mind when I typed that?
Ah don't forget Bugs Bunny! xDD He always eats carrots as if they're so yummy
However, for my taste... Carrots are disgusting
I wonder why I love Carrot juice though?

I randomly clicked on links in twitter and youtube
I found out something interesting
Why do people hate Canadian Young Star, Justin Bieber so much?
I'm not siding with him or anything but I think its a little too much , no?
Sure, I too asked , "Why do people LOVE him so much?" as well.
I don't love him, nor do I hate him
I'm in the "I don't care about him. He's just a kid like us" place xD
But you know... All celebrities has their Anti's
But really now... If you hate them so much,
Instead of going around spouting rumors that "Oh! He's Gay!" "He's a flirt!" "He's a jerk!"
Just shut your screen or TV off, flip your newspapers away from that section and mind you own business!
What happens if they're actually nice? Won't they feel hurt?
I'm sure everyone knows what I'm trying to say
If you don't know the person, don't spread stuff that you sound like you know everything about him.
If you hate that person, keep it to yourself, don't bother to spread your hatred around, its really not worth it really.
Just live your life and enjoy it instead of ruining other people's lives

I think I suddenly wrote about this because I remembered Hangeng's Anti-Fans incident :(
(Heh, from JustinB to Hangeng xD)
Just because he's from China, Antis sprouts T_T
Miss him! >.< Hope to see him together with SUJU soon!~

2011-05-12T06:20:00.000-07:00

I'm supposed to be studying Biology
But I'm watching videos in Youtube =v=
Ah got a letter from NY Poly
Saying about courses bla bla bla
The same thing
All poly have the same courses
And thus, no course I want to take T_T
I don't feel like polytechnic
Nor do I want to go ITE or JC
So where should I go?
Stay at home after doing my O levels? :D

2011-05-10T03:35:00.000-07:00

Maths Pap er 2 was horrible...
If O level standard is like this
I'll fail for sure :(
Half of the paper not done )x
History... No mood do xD
Just write whatever came in my mind

I feel like eating Mi Siam at near the Sengkang Polyclinic
A little tuckshop named "Uncle Tony"
Oooooffff the food there is delicious and cheeeappp!!! >.<
I wanna eat there! I regret not finishing the bowl a month ago
That's because I was sick >.<

2011-05-09T08:22:00.000-07:00

I just doodled due to my mood
I'm feeling a whole of emotions inside of me
I'm angry with the weather but it isn't the Earth's fault
We have no one but to blame ourselves for this
I feel like in a verge of giving up because of the exams
I feel somehow paranoid that I might have done something wrong again
I feel discouraged about my cooking and how I do my chores
(E.g. I've been critiqued that my cooking and how I fold clothes looked like my face. Are you saying that I'm ugly and twisted?)
I feel rather happy when I think about silly thoughts
I feel crazy when I suddenly feel like laughing for no particular reason
Overall, I feel content ^^

Eh I don't lar
Walao eh =.=
Aish I don't know already lar
Keep thinking about this stuff
Sian of it I tell you
However, overall I more feel rage inside of me
I must not keep feeling angry all the time
The main thing right now is my studies
How I wish it were that easy
Yet another obstacle I have to face
It's either I'll face it, avoid it, kill myself or just plain conquer it!
Be grateful for what I have right now
I have shelter, food on the table, school education, books, TV, internet , friends
Other people have to find food instead of waking up and eat what ever is on the table
Other people must work from a very young age due to not being able to go to school
Be grateful for what I have right now. Treasure my family and friends,
Even though they're did the wrong deed to me.
Even though friends I don't talk to anymore, I would still remember and think of you. And hope we will find the time we will be able to meet and talk again.
Both close and far away friends.

Thank you for the life I have now.
I'll live through it fully, taking up the obstacles and conquer it
Those past experiences are meant for me to learn and choose what is right or wrong.
I'm grateful for all the events that had happened in my 17 years of life.
Both bad and good events. They both had a role to play to make the way I am now.

Thank you.

2011-05-09T06:06:00.000-07:00

Click for larger view xD
Hahaha I can't help but smile xD
Heh!
xD
I didn't know that Luffy's full name is Monkey .D.Luffy
Hey! Eunhyuk's a golden monkey! xD
<3 Lee Hyukjae bias xD

2011-05-09T04:17:00.000-07:00

The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

The problem with me and Maths
Is the fact that I always try to solve the problem the hard and complicated way
Seeing the diagram in a complicated way and never take notice of the obvious way to solve the solution

I asked my sis about a Triangle question
I didn't see there's a big triangle, I only managed to see a Trapezium so I tried solving the trapezium but I didn't get the answer
When I passed it to my sis , she said,
"I don't want to solve for you! You go find the area of the small triangle and then minus off with the whole triangle lar!"
My reaction was
"... It took me 2 hrs to finally give up this question and now you're telling me that that's the solution?! That EASY and yet I wasted my time to find the trapezium?!"

See?? This tells me one thing about myself
I always see things the hard way
And never take notice of things that are obvious to see
Meep

Tomorrow's the History and Maths
I don't feel like studying History...
Gah
Neither does maths
Meep

Oh yea, one thing I wanted to complain about =/
The bubble tea shop near my house, is expensive! @.@
Its just a regular bubble tea shop
Not those with names (E.G Koi or Eskimo)
You know how much they sell one Milk Tea?
$1.80!!
And its not even as tasty as the usual ones me and my friends frequent!
Back at Tampines, its sold for $1.00
Why is it so expensive here?
There's no other bubble tea shops around
I can understand why the price of bubble tea increased near the Tampines Regional Library (They're sold from $1.00 to $1.30)
That's because there are more bubble tea shops opened nearby, and they attracted lots of customers
I never got a chance to try those new bubble tea shops (Koi and Eskimo)
They're... expensive. I can't afford it
Since I've yet to try it, I'm not going to critique its taste x)
I saw Eskimo's menu for one milk tea
Its... If my eyesight does not fool me,
Its... Its...
$2.30 >.< If its not, then yes, I can't see properly, I have Myopia x)
Once, one student drinking Koi dropped it in the bus
And the whole cup just broke like that, spilling it all over the floor
No choice but to throw it away, kinda wasted >.<
My sis told me a similar incident, only its located at Comic Connection

But here? Why??
I'm never going to buy it here again @.@

Whether is getting humid day by day
To all people out there, especially to my beloved friends, x)
Drink lots of fluids !! Eat fruits like watermelon and oranges to cool you all down!
And yes, for me, my personal favorite
A Chinese Dessert, Ci Tong (I hope I spell it right xD ) ,
Is great for bringing cool to our body :D
My mum told me that and its sweet and cool!
Yummy yummy yummy!
Avoid fruits like Mangoes and Durians , they bring heat to our bodies x)

2011-05-08T05:28:00.000-07:00

Maybe its best to just be it
Is it better to have a heart of steel, to not care for anybody?
Or is it better to care for one another?

2011-05-08T03:40:00.000-07:00

My heart just melted

Today's Mother's Day
Well, did nothing in particular
I never celebrate it
You tell me this
My family is awkward with these kind of stuff
Can't help it
Or its meant to be like this
We shouldn't celebrate Mother's Day for a day
But everyday

Listening to : Hoshi No Uta
A song from 2 young men, they composed themselves
I don't know their real name though but its beautiful
Even though I don't know what they're singing about
Its below xD

Hmm...
Is it me or is everyone avoiding me? =/
Nah they're probably busy
I hope...

Still have yet to study
Watched Sagwa earlier just now due to my bored-ness
I suddenly remember this cartoon and searched for it
One of my faves when I was young xD
Because its about cats!! xD

2011-05-08T01:18:00.001-07:00

Do you know what I feel like doing today?

I don't know either

Suddenly, I feel disgusted with myself

2011-05-07T05:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm

"Let's celebrate!"
"Err... Celebrate?"
"Hmm.... I know! How about a date?"
"Huh? Oh no *blushes* I have to get going, need to get to my-"
"Fair enough, I'm a work in progress too."
"Huh?"
"Alright, after I become stronger, then we'll go out on a date!"
"Wha-?! No! I can't make any promises!"

Heh xD
A silly thought

2011-05-07T03:55:00.000-07:00

Alligator Sky Music Video ^^
In my opinion...
The video has no link to the song xD

2011-05-07T03:45:00.001-07:00

The weather's too hot for me to even do anything
I ended up doing nothing but watching videos in my brother's psp
*sigh*

2011-05-06T04:53:00.000-07:00

Going to fail Maths Paper 1
I didn't knew time flies so fast when I was doing the paper
I was only at page 12 and then "Alright, Pens Down"
And there are 17 pages
80 marks at most
Further more, at the pages I've done, at least 4 were black
Excluding the ones I never got a chance to do

My body was aching this morning
I sound like an old woman
Probably because I couldn't get any sleep last night
I did take a little nap while waiting for hotdogs to boil
About... 15 minutes or so

Social Studies paper was okay
Managed to finish it but the essay questions just put whatever I know
Super untidy too
Because, I had no energy to do >.<
While doing the paper, I kept on looking at Mr Hasan
I wonder what's he's doing
One moment I saw him bobbing his head or something like that
Another moment I saw him stretching
Then my classmates told me he tapped on their tables and sat in front of them, distracting them xD
Most of my classmates were irritated by his coughing
But he can't help it though, age has gotten onto him
I didn't even notice that though
I remembered my classmates coughing and sneezing last year during prelims
(One of them sitting behind me some more )
And almost everybody got irritated by it xD
Well we can't help that kind of feeling of irritation so we just bear with it

I guess i have to score well for my paper 2
Otherwise, I might as well flunk the whole paper
*sigh* Serves me right for not studying
It's my own fault and I'll accept it

After the paper, went to see Mr Amos Ng for chemistry consultation
I accompanied Rachel and Jasmine since I don't feel like going home
Thankfully, both of them understood what teacher taught them about Mole Concept :)
Jasmine told me he looked fierce
But today's event proved never judge a book by its cover :D
Yosh! I have to score well for Chemistry
I don't want to go to Mr Tay's class T_T
I wanna stay with Mr Ng xD
I'm not being bias, I just prefer Mr Ng's teaching and the candy he gave us every lesson <3
Well, that's all for now
See ya all!

2011-05-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

A righteous companion is better than loneliness and loneliness is better than a wicked companion. #islam

Got this from twitter
Pretty logical if you ask me
Thank you Allah for guiding me towards the right path

2011-05-05T03:59:00.000-07:00

The invasion of fleas are back
I hope I can escape from their clutches like I did last week
Where do they come from anyway?
Where's the source?

I wonder how she can have the motivation to study
Haih not like me
Still here blogging
Tomorrow's Maths and SS paper
Most worried is my Maths
Haih
And I'm still not studying

Everyone's feeling the pressure
Check out facebook and everyone's spamming that they're stress and can't get everything in their head
Jiayou everyone!

Hmm...
School was fine I guess
Nothing new happening around

... I think somebody's mad at me
Got that kind of feeling
For I don't know whatever reason
Sorry if I sounded rude or anything today
I got carried away with my thoughts
*bows*

How I wish I got someone to talk to
But talking about it sounds awkward and uncomfortable
I don't like it if people force me to do something I don't like
Sorry but that's how I am

I hate this feeling
The feeling of not being able to help others
The feeling of being so useless
What can I do?
I know I can help, but do they need my help?
That's the feeling alright
So tell me, what can I do?
So which is better, approach them when they look like they needed help or just leave them be ?
He's right (for a change.) No matter what we do, we will always remain an outsider

hmm.. Forget it, I'm ranting again
But for what I wonder?
I don't know, I just don't know
I don't know what I'm angry about
What's the source for this anger?
Me? My siblings? My friends? Or am I just being angry for no reason?
Or is it my studies?
So I'm sorry to my friends if I sounded rude or angry in the future
Sorry in advance before I committed anything that would offend you
*bows*

Currently waiting for a reply
I hope she's just away and not ignoring me
*Me being paranoid again*
If this keeps up, I can never make it to the Work Life in the future

2011-05-04T03:47:00.000-07:00

Oh hi
The atmosphere is so foggy today
After school, it started to rain
It was okay at Tampines, it did rain, no lightning and thunder
But once I've reached Sengkang, lightning and thunder were close, I swear it could strike me anytime

...
Erm..

*sigh*
Okay
...
Damn...
School, there were 11 absentees
I ate 2 Siew Mai and Curry Pau
Went to the school library, read sa few pages of some books of "Second Glance"
And another book I forget the title but its from the same author as the "Kite Runner"
Over heard someone said my name when I went in the library
Looks like somebody is bragging about me beating Daryn on an Essay
Eeeep

P.E, did some stuff
Throwing a 2kg ball to and fro with my partner
It was kinda fun but tiring
My shoulders hurt after that
During the trial,
People beside me suddenly started to giggle
I didn't pay much attention to it then one of my male classmates said,
"A'liah! It's you!"
And our P.E teacher "Ah yes, the one wearing the track pants! Never see the ball ah!" *wags his index finger
And I stood there, knowing nothing what I just did
Did I almost got hit by the heavy ball and not seeing it or something?
Oh well

Assembly...
For 6 years in this school, its the Drug Presentation thing again
I slept throughout the hour

I'm right ever since I was in Secondary one
Never trust anyone
They might as well talk behind my backs
I'm used to it, besides, they don't care
They can still laugh while I'm trying to hold back my tears
I won't cry over friends or family again
I have to be strong

Why bother keeping grudges?
It's a sin to do so
Why bother being angry when it actually better to let go?
Hmm?

Today, in school I was alone
As I had suspected.

Oh yea
Bye

2011-05-03T04:41:00.001-07:00

My stomach pain came back :(
It has been like that since yesterday
And due to that, I vomited in the bus yesterday
Luckily my sis got a plastic bag >.<
and I kept on vomiting in process when walking to 800+
Then it stopped after I ate my dinner
I think its because of the curry I ate yesterday with bread
And corn
:(
Lesson learnt
Do not eat Curry on an empty stomach
Me and Jasmine ate curry on the same day
And today we both have stomach pain
This is too scary
There are too many common things we share
@.@
I hope it will go away tomorrow >.<
I fear I might be the only one going to school tomorrow if Jasmine's not coming
50-50 that Raz's going to come
But the other three nah
I knew their pattern already wahaha
Hope mei mei is going school otherwise I'm lonely heh
Nah I guess its okay...
Its okay to be alone sometimes
I guess...

P.S:I keep imagining about my OCs, Kira and Sasuke fighting over something
@.@ I really need to re-plan their stories soon

2011-05-03T04:07:00.000-07:00

Ah so tire
I'm looking at the clouds right now
Its to dark...
Okay school was horrible
At the seat I'm sitting, I couldn't see the whiteboard
During POA lesson, I couldn't see what's teacher is writing so I gave up and fell asleep
And I was awoke by the vibration caused by my handphone in my pocket
Yep, it was my Mother, saying that she's at the general office, paying my O level fees.
Must be hard for her... Needed to pay for mine and my sister's exam fees
This is one thing I wish to pass and not to retake, so not to waste my mum's money

Okay, heard from yesterday from the news that Osama's been shot dead
But what strikes me is this
There's only one source of information about this
From the U.S President
And from what my history teacher said during history is
"From what you all learn in SS and history, aren't you not supposed to rely onto only one source?"
Exactly
So I won't believe what the words are said are true, unless there are more evidence that he's really dead

2011-05-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

I'm surfing the web again
For no apparent reason xD
I was finding the word defining "otaku"
Its often used to describe people who are obsessed with Anime
But actually, the word isn't entirely describes only those group of people
"Otaku" means being obsessed with a certain thing or hobby
There. ^^
You know, I'm not entirely an Otaku over Anime
Sure, I love watching them but I'm not obsessed with them
Sure, I imagined them but I won't get so obsessed to the extent of wanting an anime boyfriend xD
I don't cosplay
I don't waste my money buying merchandises (But then, maybe its because I don't have any money xD)
I don't ONLY talk about anime to my friends all the time
... That would be boring
I don't listen to anime songs only
So there, I'm not an Otaku xD

Hmm... Maybe I'm an Otaku over K-POP maybe? xD
Nah
I don't listen to K-POP all the time
Over SUJU?
Nah, sure I love them but not to the extent to wanting them all for myself xD

Hmm... How about over books?
Nah, I only read certain genres, not all kinds
Wahahaha!

Hmm...An Otaku over Owls, Cats and Fishies?
...
DEFINITELY! An absolute YES! xD

Phew! No school tomorrow!
But... I really need to start studying
Gah
Okay NIGHT everyone!
xD

P.S: I really need to change my blog skin... Its really getting embarrassing...
how many times have I typed the above sentence already?

2011-05-01T05:03:00.000-07:00

What am I doing? xD
...
You know...
Kingdom Hearts is a SUPER FANTASY game ._.
xD Sorry being random xD
And I'm blur too, because I don't play the first and 2nd game because
I don't have PS2
You know, how did people afford buying
PS1, PS2, PS3 and PSP when ever it was released?
Won't the previous game console became useless ?
Then what's the point of buying it ?
Hmm...

I'm sorry, have you seen a fish with white stripes, also commonly known as an Angel Fish?
Oh my sweet fish come to meeeeh!

2011-05-01T02:16:00.000-07:00

You know what I'm feeling like doing right now?
I feel like
Flying over to Ayakane,Midori and Hui Min's house and have fun with them
Aw man I miss them so much :(
We went out seperate paths, I can't believe I still remember our secondary school days we spent each other
Even though we're in different classes and the three of them graduated earlier
It's strange that I still remember the memories
Usually I don't remember people who left me but...
Heh... Guess this is much more deep and pure ^^
I feel like eating Ice Cream with them :'(
xDD

I miss Hui Min's unique laughter
She always laughed at the littlest and silly things
Such like our P.E teacher wears bright yellow and she laughs like crazy xD
Or when she smashed the badminton racket because she was angry during P.E and it bend, looked at it and laughed like crazy again
It's true I don't share my secrets with her but its still fun
(Actually, I never really did share secrets to anybody >.<)

Ah Ayakane_chan
I missed your rambling about men xD
I have no choice but to agree with because
I feel the same way xD
Our rumblings about SUJU
And our discussions about life and religion
And our outings to the AFA and Library
He he ^^

Ah Midori
I missed our discussions about our families
We do have something in common about these issues
They're not the same, but its similar enough to understand each other xD

These friends, I never told them about my personal life
I never told them about my problems
But still, they're the ones I treasure
We respect and have fun
Even though it's short
I know we'll meet again
I had a hunch that we will xD

After reading Ayakane chan's blog
I can't help but think that what she said was all true
About friendships and Men
It is true, when I'm in primary school, I never really had friends
The ones I had found new friends and left me alone
Because of my family situation at that current time
I absent myself often and my teachers scolded me
Especially my Maths Teacher, she always scolded me
Just because I don't know how to do Maths
There is a word called "Teach" you know
I usually sat alone in class as none of my classmates talked to me
When they all played monopoly after our PSLE, I just sat at one corner and read certain books
I still remember those books are Enid Blyton books xD
You know what? Maybe its because we share common friendship issues that bind us together into friendship ^^

I have always thought Men are irresponsible creature
They won't take up their responsibility when they did wrong
Probably after my parents incident I hated men
In fact, I disgusted them
In Secondary 1, I've always watched my male classmate bullying Hui Min
I couldn't do anything of course
Then one day, all of them called me "fighter" for some reason I don't know
And strayed away from me
It's... ridiculous isn't it? =.=
Although, now I'm having problems with a certain male classmate whom I find him disturbing and annoying
How I wish I could tell him to get lost and don't talk to me anymore
Leave me alone and let me do my own things
No matter how matter times I told him to not pry in other people's privacy
He won't stop. Why? We have our own pasts, leave it.
If we don't want to tell you, let it be! There shouldn't be any reason not to anyway!
Why would we tell you? Are you even our personal friend ?
You're just a classmate to us who can turn for help in studies ONLY
You have a whole family, money and technology. Not everyone is like that so be it.
*sigh*
After Secondary 2, when I got promoted, I didn't get disturbed by guys
I made 2 new friends, but they soon left me when we went separate class in Secondary 3
That's when I met another new friend
She's a girl who is hated by my other classmates for reasons I don't know
That is probably why my other classmates strayed away from us

Although... That friend told me lies and stories and I hate people like that
And she usually left me during recess so I started not to hang out with her anymore
And suddenly, my classmates started asking me why I'm not hanging out with her anymore and I didn't tell them the reason of course
It's not their problem, they don't talk to me, then suddenly, they ask me this question? Hmm...
However, I met 2 new friends, Rachel and Jasmine
Even though I'm hard at the edge with Rachel at the beginning , we still got through even though we got angry at each other

It is true what Ayakane said in her blog
I'm an outcast in groups I'm not close to the people with
It's something I can't do anything about it
Probably because I'm too quiet or anti-social
Or they just don't bother adding me into the conversation
Or perhaps a past experience with me or something although I have no idea off
But you know what? There's no need to think about this
One of the leaders in Mind-champ program told me
If I don't mix around with people, I will have a hard time in the working world
I guess so... Yea. But what can I do?

Heh... Sorry for ranting :P
I just suddenly thought of them xD It is time consuming and its good
I'm bored anyway!
Erm can I fly to your houses now my missed friends? xDD
I just hope I'm light enough and my secret wings are in place xD
And ready to take off!!!!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!